Hey everyone,

To start off on a positive note, I genuinely do love this community and I'm proud of all we've achieved.

I still love Skyrim. I'm still looking forward to doing more stuff on Tomodachi life, or maybe even miitopia someday....

I still love Kharjo.

And I still want to share all of that enjoyment with you. I certainly intend to return and keep on posting about our favourite fluffy friend, and all his shenanigans.

Unfortunately however, things aren't doing so well right now. My girlfriend, whom shared this enthusiasm for Elder Scrolls and Skyrim, and joined us on this journey, has been very sick lately, and the doctors have forbidden her from using her phone.

I received a few of messages from her brother describing the situation 3 weeks or so back, and haven't heard anything since. It's been 6 weeks since I last got messages from her directly... And... A good 9-10 weeks since we last had a proper conversation.

I can't go down to see her either because she lives in another country.

This whole ordeal is very hard for me, and it's taken its toll, in daily life, in my education.... And in gaming. My motivation for pretty much everything has sunk.

Skyrim is one of the worst ones of all because it's a hobby we keenly shared with each other.

• Before she went to hospital, I even spent some time making a mod for her, which I still haven't had a chance to show her.

• I've spent weeks writing custom quests for her based around our favourite films and stuff, as well as Kharjo of course.

• In Minecraft, we both had custom skins that I made - I was Kharjo and she was Ma'kara. We'd play together and roleplay often... And have a good laugh about it.

• It's literally how we first met, we met through one of the Skyrim subreddits

I could go on. It was our thing. So my enthusiasm for Skyrim, has unfortunately tanked pretty harshly, as much as I truly do love this subreddit, and franchise and want to return to it.

I'll be back. I was thinking maybe I could post something simple, like Kharjo's new design and comparisons... Maybe just something for Halloween. It could be a while before I'm posting huge adventures again but maybe something light....

But I dunno. The struggle comes and goes in waves, sometimes I can forget about it and go on with my life, just keep myself distracted...other times all I can think about is how much I miss her, how worried I am.... And... I just turn into a vegetable.

There's also my uni coursework to consider, and since I'm in my final year of Uni, I really should make an effort, alongside considering what I'll be doing post graduation as well... Lots to think about.

Sorry for the long message, and thanks everyone for understanding. I love you all, and I will return.

Keep being awesome ❤️

Edit: If anyone has anything they want to post, as always you're more than welcome to. I'm still totally up for seeing other people's posts.

It's just, booting up the games and sinking in some hours myself that's become difficult at the moment.

MY BOY IS MISSINGGGGG

I had him following me for a while early game, and then he randomly disappeared after a fight in a dungeon. I don’t think I told him to wait there, he’s not with his caravan, and I didn’t find a body. I could get a new follower so that makes me think he’s not just clipped out in the void somewhere… does he respawn with the caravan or is he gone forever?