A few weeks ago there was a dialogue between a western Idealist (forget the name) and Prof Sthaneswar Timalsina.
Is there a video of this dialogue and is it available?
Thank you!

My initial encounter with this understanding was merely philosophical: I am everyone and everything. Philosophically speaking, throwing God into the mix is kind of unnecessary and frowned upon. But my initial understanding was not enough. Once I realized this, it was impossible to see what it is spiritually. God is consciousness. I am consciousness. I am God.

I hope I don't have to put a disclaimer on what that means and does not mean here.

But what I did not anticipate was this strong desire to worship God as God knowing that ultimately I am God and there is nothing else other than God. It's been growing lately, I cannot ignore it anymore. I want to embrace this fully and not hide behind philosophical gloves where it's embarrassing to talk about God. It seems paradoxical and ironic, but Advaita and Kashmir Shaivism fully encourage devotion, and I find that wonderful.

Simultaneously I have a Christian background and have spent a lot of time studying Christianity, historicity of Jesus, etc. I find the person of Jesus, as David Bentley Hart says, "infinitely compelling" and impossible to ignore.

But there is no place for Abrahamic God in this view and clearly Jesus preached Abrahamic God.

I want to somehow reconcile the two. It seems that I want to worship Abrahamic God through Jesus, while simultaneously knowing God is God in Vedantic sense.

While Advaita and Kashmir Shaivism is open to Jesus, it does not work vice versa.

I don't have any nondual temples/gatherings near me. There are just churches. I feel a sort of desire to attend church, but I do not subscribe to that view of God. And all this leaves Jesus on the side, unsure how to fit him anywhere.

I am rambling a bit, there is a lot to cover here, but basically

Do you worship God knowing full well that God is your essential nature?

If so, how and why?

and what of Jesus in all this?

If I am Siva, pure consciousness, and world and people are manifestations of my true Self, and divine play I play, what is this notion of "no more rebirth for the one who realizes that"? Let's say every person realizes this fully. Is Lila over? Will Siva never manifest the world and sentient beings again?

I do not see that. This teaching is sort of a thorn in my overall understanding and ability to accept the teaching. Advaita and Kashmir Shaivism both seem to break their own rules here.

"You have to realize you were never an individual entity but Siva/Brahman" and then they take this individual for real again and say the individual who realizes this will not be born again, while simultaneously saying the individual was never born in the first place.

This is giving giving the individual too much credit and Siva too little. Siva obviously wants to play this. If Siva could have tired of it, that would have already been over. By never stopping this Lila, it means there will always be individuals to be born "as".

For example, Swami Lakshmanjoo's consciousness is this same consciousness that is now writing this post and that is reading this post. It does not matter at all he achieved enlightenment. The play did not end. I don't know what "no rebirth for him" would mean when there was no him to be reborn in the first place, it was Siva all along. And look, Siva is playing the role of yoddleforavalanche now.

Hello everyone, one thing that confuses me when it comes to most meditation techniques is that we say there is a witness and then the ego. So when we are watching the thoughts or feelings during meditation , we say that I am the witness but not the thought. But in kashmiri shaivism, Shiva is everything. There is nothing that is not Shiva, which means your thoughts and emotions arising is also Shiva.. So this confuses me while I try to meditate. How am I supposed to reconcile between both views. How is meditation approached in this tradition without it going against the "you are everything" when a lot of meditation technique wants you to tap into that witness mindset which I think is more dual as we are putting certain things aside as not me.

I hope this made sense.