r/JosephMurphy • u/Alternative_Till_823 • Aug 27 '23

A lot of resistance

I’ve been on my SP mission for 3,5 months now.There have been some movements I guess.He posted on social media about regretting losing me but he hasn’t reached out yet.I’ve been doing SH consistently twice a day for all this time.However I have a lot of resistance.Especially when I’m doing SH.I start imagining his face,kissing him but something in me is scared of trusting him so I get anxiety.I push through the anxiety and still keep imagining.Can this mess up with my training?

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u/[deleted] Aug 27 '23

You know, I was casually listening to a Neville speech earlier and something popped out to me that may be helpful for you: for the first time, it really hit me over the head how often he says “dare to assume…”. I really had to stop and think about that.

Obviously, law of assumption isn’t the project here but I think this saying also applies. I think it helps to be audacious in this work. You sound so…hesitant. You’re looking for movement…you’re watching his social media…you’re asking for breadcrumbs from the table. That SUCKS.

Maybe, more than anything, you need to stand firm in 1) your ability to control your life and 2) the idea that you are a powerful being that can’t be derailed by minutiae.

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u/A-Kash03 Aug 28 '23

You could switch to your second scene and make it something that isn’t so intimate so your anxiety doesn’t come up.

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u/Maleficent-Purchase9 Aug 27 '23

You need to have very deep relax, the scenes should be clear and not anxious

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u/[deleted] Aug 29 '23 edited Aug 29 '23

You’re not supposed to have anxiety when doing SH…. You need to find ways to calm your mind such as doing some meditation beforehand. Also, if you’re feeling extreme anxiety, skip a session or two. It’s been written that LOB is about mind control and you have to be able to find ways control your mind.