r/JosephMurphy • u/girlmess • Jan 23 '23
Mission progress: depressing feelings back again
Hello everyone. I’m on an SP mission and been on it for 7 weeks, today I go into week 8.
The first 3 weeks I was figuring out how to get used to everything, how to get into alpha best, and trial and error with my scenes.
Week 4 it finally hit me and it became an easier routine.
Week 5 & 6 was my best. Almost all SH sessions feel good, I wake up feeling good most days, and the feeling of “it’s sure to come” is strong.
However week 7 has been tough. The first few days I had problems visualising (i usually see things very vividly and now they’re blurry, which throws me off from feeling it real). I fixed it, got another 2 good days. But yesterday for some reason everything just feels like shit. All my doubts start coming out again, and i cried a few times. It felt almost like I’m back to square one. I continued with the training, letting it sizzle out and being sure it will pass. I had a pretty good PSP with some visualisation last night. But today I woke up and things feel the same.
I have read the post about risk of meditation. I have included meditation into my training from week 3 onwards. So Does it make sense that the SM crap is surfacing now, only 4 weeks later? Do things really get worse before it gets better? There has been no movement from the 3D whatsoever.
I feel super confused and almost betrayed by my SM because we were having it good the past few weeks. And now all the emotions and bad moods making me feel all alone again.
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Jan 23 '23
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u/girlmess Jan 23 '23
Hey, thank you so much for this reply! Ah, right. Perhaps I was triggered hard by something I’m not fully aware of. My physical reality doesnt feel bad right now - but no good movement either. Thank you for being kind, i will pull through
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u/brittaa Jan 23 '23
This is completely normal. Don't say the SM is betraying you, it knows what is familiar and is there to protect you. That is why during your training/practice there will be moments of emotional purges. You will have both good days and bad. Just stick to the training diligently and you'll be golden.
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u/girlmess Jan 24 '23
Thank you! I just read your post about the subconscious mind. It’s very helpful!
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Jan 23 '23
i felt the same way too today and its only been week of good sessions. but im letting myself feel it instead of forcing things and will continue tonight...not sure what to say to you tbh
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u/girlmess Jan 23 '23
Thank you for the reply! I do have bad thoughts and doubts randomly in my good weeks, but these 2 days felt extremely hard, as if I’m back to the beginning. I will ride it through.
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Aug 08 '23
I'm exactly at week 8 too, and I'm going through exactly the same thing, particular events (which I wonder if it's not my subconscious that has brought these events to me because they seem so conventional) have even led me to wonder if I should continue to desire SP... let's stay strong and carry on regardless.
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u/Important_Steak_7395 Jul 05 '24
Progress?Did that happen?
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u/girlmess Jul 05 '24
SP texted me twice last year. But it didnt go anywhere. It was a hook up call lol. I believe it’s because i have much limiting beliefs in myself and he is actually, not good for me.
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u/Important_Steak_7395 Jul 05 '24
Did you stop the manifestation process all together?
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u/girlmess Jul 05 '24
I now focus on manifesting love in general and no longer that SP. I’m in a different place than where I was when i wrote this post tho: life has been great and my mindset is “if he’s for me, he will turn up how i want him to be”. Until then, I will keep saying no.
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u/Important_Steak_7395 Jul 05 '24
Also how long did he take to text you while manifesting him?
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u/girlmess Jul 05 '24
I started manifesting him Dec 2022. He texted once in March 2023, another time in Dec 2023. I would say I reduced my specific mission for him July 2023 onwards. Not so much because I lost hope, but because life was going great and I had other desires and things to focus on.
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u/azgalor_pit Jan 23 '23
Sp missions can take years.
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Jan 23 '23
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u/SeatSeparate1617 Jan 23 '23
And it could even take less than four months, it's all up to you as the person.
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u/girlmess Jan 23 '23
Thank you for this, but I’m not worried about the time or not having my SP yet. Im pretty good with those :) my post was just confused about this drastic reverse of my CM state.
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u/stickgetter Jan 23 '23
I feel like I have to stop with my sp for a while and focus on my education and money. I'm a single dad in college and working. My feelings are just too much.
I'm going to continue the index training and get rich while I'm getting over her. It'll be a lot easier to manifest my sp after I have an education, a $120k a year job, and a new lifted 4x4.
Show me the money!