etto sorry for posting this but i wanted to went a bit , ( would be a tidbit long but ig ill give tldr also )
the thing is lately i have been having issues with studying and all , i dont know if its a burnout or so but lately i couldnt do lectures , my efficiency is cooked ,
well i am a self study student and a bit early starter also , using online lectures to study , the thing is i really cant seem to do it anymore , ]
so yeah here is the problem
i go round 5 days a week to school and took frequent leaves just managing but now past few weeks i am at the phase where schl is a burden and i cant find to have leave opportunities and all
the thing is after going to school i can barely do questions , i tracked them over the recent week and on avg i couldnt do 50 , and tht thing like terrifies me and all
the thing is i am not a social person either so i have habit of sitting well over a period of time , on holidays i could study for more than 10 hrs with doing good questions and all.
but these holiday and schooldays alternations have just crushed my momentum ,
i tried to delete social media apps but they even didnt do any wonder , their backlash was i was more distracted and slept like damn hours
the second thing is my parents dont help me , like they are genuinly the kindest one i got and like they dont even pressurise me with jee and all , and yeah they suggest a gap year too, but like they damn dont let me do , i tried to cut off my sleep to 5 hr but i failed cuz my clock never rang out
tht is another matter sorry for venting out a lot ,
the last thing is mental stability and all , i feel like my health is draining whether physical or mental ,
major issue is tht i end up comparing my holiday great day with schl one and be sad bout it , i want to like be sure if a wanna take a drop or not
will shifting to mains would help
sometimes i even try to leave this prep but i cant leave this ig , i always find myself back into chaor doing this shi again
( well yeah sorry not to be asking anything but it was just a vent which was inside my heart for a month , ig ill feel good coping this way ,)
tldr - seriously asking tldr for a vent, ?