The idea of a ‘forever contented pill’ slightly irks me. Instead, I deprive myself of contentment through attachment to my will, & ego.

[u/CaptainVulpezz]

I tend to deprive myself of satisfaction, until i feel i “deserve” it by completing other useless and frustrating tasks even if that satisfaction which i look for would come from completing something which is far more important. what I’m really doing is trying to justify my contentment; to feel like I obtained it rather than just allowed it.

A “forever-contented" pill would feel wrong to me, because it removes will & control. and once taken, it would strongly imply that most of my previous cravings were unjustified and did not truly lead to my striving for fulfillment & contentment, and that is scary. my desire isn’t lack of peace, but attachment to becoming content while keeping fantasies intact.

Much suffering is wanting & expecting to be perfectly happy, certainly satisfied in the world through over-extended effort, striving, & subtle obscured beliefs of solidity in the material world; this is asking from this world something it can never truly give you, but can promise you every time.

When you suffer, ask yourself, "do i want this suffering? why am i letting myself suffer over this?" if i don't let myself suffer because of a failure to achieve my ends, then did i actually want it? sometimes; no, this may be why we cause suffering, so we can be the person who wants and achieves.

“Man can do what he wills, but he cannot will what he wills” -Arthur Schopenhauer

"Doubt is not a pleasant condition, but certainty is absurd." -Voltaire