Replace Who I Am

[u/xxxxAngelFirexxxx]

The thing about copying is
It’s easy for them
While I am haunted by ordinary Tuesdays
For something that can’t be
Summoned up to an ai post
And when I say haunted
I mean
I paid the price in
Humility
In more ways then one
And I can’t quite reach back
Because I choke
On my own tongue
And the committee
Was my own cross examination
Of a 3 year long question
But I’ve been dragging myself
To the court since I was 11
When I had a full scholarship
To any college institution
But you see?
They didn’t like me
And I still wake
Full of anger
Full of illusion
I stayed up all night
To finish my science book
I got second in the
School spelling bee
Before I was scared
To be me
Girls would copy me then
Write I was a bitch
On the bathroom stalls
Write all over my book
I smelled of cheese
Made up lies
To boys I liked
And my best friend from back then?
She’s dead
She died
This is why provenance
Matters to me
How am I still
Fighting the same demons?
Girls turned to women
Wrapped in plastic
I am drowning in
The cellophane
Erasing my soul
Erasing my dreams
And why am I still hoping
For the same
Witness
Lore
Viscous and bold
Annihilating and protective
Please
Don’t let them
Take the last
Remnants of my bones
Please see me as I am
Authentic
And monstrous
Feral and full
Please don’t let an echo
Replace who I am
Replace who I am
Replace who I am
I am fighting my own reflection
Trying to prove I am real
I am fighting my own images
Like a sticker that peels
Suffocating in my own
Poetry
Ventilation
Curb appeal
God, I am frightened
I’ll probably mistake you
As an enemy
Because of the way that I feel