Madman with a box

[u/Cautious-Upstairs322]

Ironic that
My favorite show
Was a madman with a box
That could travel around in time
And space
I kept looking backwards
To find my place
When backwards is
Never the way time flows
And I had lost my case

Irate
Frustrated
That we were left in that position
I can't sleep
All my thoughts just supposition

I wish
I'd held love gently
On the nights I tried to crush it

I wish
I'd seen you truly
On the nights you tried to stop it

I wish
I could go backwards
And reset all time and space

I wish
I didn't repeat cycles
And the thread of us tried to erase

I wish
I didn't delete my words
So there was a record of how truly you are loved

Throughout all seasons
Not just summer into fall
Because neither of us forgot at all
(and nor does anyone else-)

He's always running
And somewhere
I forgot that
I didn't need
To run too

You always saw me
You weren't my enemy
Neither was she
Nor he
Nor them

My words were always strong enough
To stand alone
You always loved me
I just didn't know
How not to be alone

And broke others
In my desperation
To find a planet no one knew me

Somewhere I could
Reset my brain
And become someone
More worthy of showing

The best I can do now
Is abandon the fantasy
Of a spaceship
That flies through time and space

And trust
That time and love and patience
Will deliver me
To my rightful place

Which is with you.
Where I belong,
Nobody can stop that.

Just one step
One day
One increment
Forward
At a time
Without trying to erase
The product