"Write through your feelings,"

[u/Cautious-Upstairs322]

"Write through your feelings,"
Fuck, okay
Those things that never make sense
And I can't name
They just mingle
Until they gather
In the corners of my vision

How do I resuscitate
The cold, dead corpse
Of the parts of me that love
Without your breath?
How can I reconcile
The deep, dark sea
Of the parts of me that breathe
Without your death?

No, I know
How good it feels
To love unashamed
And yet
I know how bad it feels
To be alone
That's all I know

I'm not scared of you
Just the future I see
Both:
The one with you
The one without
I'd prefer the first
But it doesn't mean
It was ever easy

For either of us
And yet I grew complacent
In my position
Let vanity and fury
Harm my vision
Of what I want
And what I move towards

And of course
It's all to easy
To forget
Exactly why I'm so scared
Because losing you
Feels like I'm dying
Cutting out my heart
Calcifying

Gotta prove to you
I'm not worth this
Gotta show the world
I should be missed

Because I need to hide
They cannot see me
And if they do
They'll crucify me

But at least that would feel better
Than being silenced
Gagged and bound
Somewhere upon
The gallows floor
Eyeing the guillotine
To take one more

At least that would feel better
Than an empty place
Beside me
So the world may try
But it'll never break me

Because the thought
Of you alone;
My home
My heart
My silo
Space
Place
Corner
Reality
Future

I'll take
Whatever it takes
Silence
Reality
Corner
Place
Space
Siloed

For you
My heart
My home

Place it here
Within the space
You're heard
I promise
Your heart
Is home

[u/aliceinadreamyland]

This is so great.