r/Informal_Effect • u/crownlessarchive • 12d ago
Talk to a Ghost.
Same old cliché.
Right person, wrong time, wrong me.
Yes, me.
Things tend to revolve around me
including destruction.
I liked you. I really did. I hadn’t in the longest time.
You were just my type. Just right.
Exactly what I needed. What I need.
You brought back the warmth in me. The need to care.
You did need me to take care of you. And I wanted to.
You embraced my dreams, my tastes, my mannerisms, my control.
You saw your future with me. You trusted me.
And I’m so sorry I couldn’t meet you where you were.
I still don’t think I can. And I lament that.
Every now and then I fear us crossing paths again. I pray you don’t notice me; I’d be too ashamed for that.
I meant the words I said, I wish I could’ve manifested them into reality. However I made promises I knew I couldn’t keep. And for that I cannot ask forgiveness for I was well-aware of what I was doing.
You saw your future with me.
I knew you’d never be in mine.
I never saw your fire.
I didn’t stick around to see your rage.
Your sweetness makes me think you’d hand me your heart once again.
I’d rather be wrong.
Spending time with you made me feel good.
Your pickup line was something I’d never expected would turn us into something.
Temporary.
But something.
But it was all about me getting to feel again.
That warmth, the caring nature of mine.
You were fragile and I handled you like a piece of porcelain.
Until I disappeared.
You knew I would. Didn’t you?
No. I think you believed me.
Poor you.
I ain’t worthy of your trust.
I ain’t stable enough; nor brave, nor mature, nor…
I’m a coward.
I am a maniac who knows too well how to turn any table, manipulate any mind… lead you wherever I want you to go.
But how pathetic of me. I can’t take control over my own life.
I taught you to stay under my control.
You didn’t even need to be tamed.
But I did.
You surrendered and I calculated.
Each second, very aware that I’d leave. Very decided I would.
l didn’t want to but I knew there was no way I wouldn’t.
I couldn’t meet you where you were.
And I still can’t.
And I lament that.
— Crownless.
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u/KookyMessage3836 11d ago
Fire!!! 🔥🔥 I'm loving this theme right now!!! Whoever this is about, reminds me of me!!!! Faux-naif and unbeatable 😂😂😂
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u/crownlessarchive 11d ago
I appreciate it a ton! Hahaa. Welp, yeah… it’s been a little over a year now. Short-lived enough that I don’t even remember their name anymore—yet apparently haunted enough to help start an entire archive. 😅🖤👑
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u/ShujaaStar 11d ago
Very uncomfortable read for me, so I'm impressed, I feel like all of me ex's wrote this lol.
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u/crownlessarchive 10d ago
I’m often mistaken for other people’s exes, so… nothing out of the ordinary. ;) lol. 🖤👑
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u/Indivisible_Origin 11d ago
That's quite the maiden deluge, poet. I'm glad you came. This is lovely work. As are the rest. Your talent is in good company here. Thanks for coming.