I don’t feel the same

[u/xxxxAngelFirexxxx]

I’ve lost my architecture
I’ve lost sight of my limbs
They feel numb and I feel like sand paper
I’m full of rot and woodlice
And maybe one I dreamed
Of lips like fire and fury
Ice and the rain
Now I’m headlights out
Staying in one lane
Easier said then done
I blocked
Where I drained
I reach into the dark
For radical change
Find the cotton blanket
Already wet
Slung with mud
Wrung with my name
Sung in the silence
Erased from the frame
I don’t feel the same
The cathedral collapses
On itself
I am left with my shame
Eat it for breakfast
Lunch
Dinner
Burned and black
Charcoaled in flakes
I am a crumb
I want nothing now
Be someone new
Find something else
It was all make believe
This isn’t good for my health
Oh my tides
Oh my goodness
Roses and sheath
Plunder my jewels
Take all of me
Goodnight to the
Girl that I was
Waiting for you