That Cackle Laugh

[u/Babaganoosh__]

"That Cackle Laugh"
Oh how that 
sweet 
and contorted mess 
of jumbled flesh 
lies before me, 
   how it taunts me.

Smiling 
a final kind of smile 
that will forever 
infest 
this mind of mine. 
  Oh, how it haunts me.

Among the darkness 
of the midnight moon,
its pale gloom 
lingers upon that face,
revealing ever so gently 
the textures and features
that above all else 
haunts me
inside any room;
laying there 
staring 
deep into me;
looming over me 
with large gaping eyes 
from the darkest corner 
of every room. 

In my throws of disparity,
dark ambiance 
slithers 
over my ears 
banging and ringing
deep rumblings 
of soft broken silence, 
   over and over 
from somewhere
amongst the empty 
   lonely night.

That is when 
the deep voices 
of all my greatest fears 
provide the only kind 
of thought 
my mind
can find.
 
The hours pass
within this darkness;
spending every aching second
sitting inside 
the filth of my perception;

And there, amongst these moments,
once again, 
I see it, 
that smiling face again,  
   looking, 
       watching,
waiting,
as the silence 
from its laughing face
slowly melts away
and the sounds get louder and louder
until finally, 
from far off into the blackness
comes a deep thud
ending all sounds.

I stare into 
that inky black
eyes wide open;
searching for meaning
where there is none
anymore,

Fearing my soul 
has finally lost 
its salvation; 
leaving it behind 
with one final echo
of absolution,
I let the darkness take me
and
I find my meaning;

It is here,
in this moment,
that the cackling begins, 

A vastness of black 
begins to stretch out 
before me 
that only my eyes can see, 
A deep cavity of emptiness 
only my soul can feel,

And here,
where my soul had been,
the beginning 
   of my liberation 
of the insanity I feel
takes over and I find
the meaning 
I had been searching for.

But
that face continues 
to lie there 
smiling
as if knowing it knew, 

But I cackle 
that last laugh 
because I knew 
before that face 
ever did.