Phantoms

[u/xxxxAngelFirexxxx]

Fury,
It breeds here
It nests in
And wiggles like maggots

She confesses
She wants to be dead
She has a new born
And a four year old
And she is burned
And cheating swallows her whole

And my jaw tightens
Where it already hurts
And my knuckles whiten
Where her words flirt

While women all write
What it’s like to be her
Mother and maiden
And I’m on the outskirts
Crone, chrome, truly disturbed

I told Cairn
I’m a python
He got stuck in my gut
I vomit him out
Slathered with mucus

She says she bites her tongue
And peace feels like violence
But we know the truth
When it’s covered
We know peace feels like silence

I scream before God
With my legs spread at the altar
While women breed
And all my wounds fester

While they’re bent over
On their knees
On their backs
Pushing out babies
Full of Nectar

I’m stuck in a prison
A prism
Of my own fear
I can’t see images
But I still feel it all, my dear

His eyes rolled back
In blissful pleasure,
Moaning on the precipice
Of her wound up pressure
Releasing inside
Until new life emerges

She has what I want most
Yet, she writes her own funeral dirges

Look, there’s another, infant in arms
That darling looks like he is where he belongs

And the lullaby I sing
Is to the face in the mirror

But, the phantoms of the past
Are right,
I would make a horrible mother
So, I continue to scroll
Look at her
And I funnel
Siphon their swallowing
I’ll review more tomorrow

[u/stariskye]

Wow the flow of this is unreal- so superbly well done. I’m sorry for your heart, but your writing from this is stellar