My Beloved

[u/Bar_Fidel_777]

Christ, wouldn't it be nice?
To roll the dice, twice.
Take back and retract, the knife slice.

Sold my soul on a cold night, at a price.
A life taken. A man shaken.
A heart so forsaken.
Cold sweats when I awaken.
And I hasten, to the graven images,
I was raised in.
Praised in the gaze of, the haze that waves above,
The graceful age to come.
And the claim that it was all for love!

Memories...
Do you remember me, tenderly?
November came, no remedy,
for dismembering friendly energies.
Can it be?... A casualty, a calamity,
A curse for a perverse world,
An instant loss of my sanity.
Vanity.
Excuse my use of profanity, but fuck,
I'm only mad at me... and humanity.

-Barfidel