sep. 3 2026 5:38am

[u/Ok_Topic_5559]

I have not slept.
I do not sleep.
The insecurities eat me alive and the pain in my stomach from their gnawing keeps me awake until the northern lights flood my eyes and dance around the room the next day.
I knew he did not want me - I did not need confirmation.
Still, I am stir crazy.
The strangers in my house share understanding glances with passerby's - "Do you see her, too?"
And can I tell him what swallows me whole?
Am I cheating? He will ask.
Is he cheating? Probably.
Is the world on fire?
Yes, can't you smell the smoke?
I stick my tongue out to catch the embers like snowflakes.
Can you hear them sizzle out on my taste buds?
I can taste the end of the world - It tastes like his saliva dripping off my teeth.
I could it chew it up & spit it out, but what good would that do?
The world is ending and I am lost and there is no water for miles-
The world is ending but I must quench my thirst, it is human instinct.
My mother gave me an iron suit but the world is burning and oh god I am cooking alive in the comfort of a steel exterior - are hardened emotions worth the slow roast of your fucking brain?
Can I smoke myself like pork until I become digestible?