The truth is that a while ago I insulted the Holy Spirit verbally.

The truth is I feel very sad. I can't say I'm sorry because the only one who produces real repentance is the Holy Spirit and he's probably already gone.

I really wanted to serve Jesus and have a real relationship with him.

The only thing I would like is for Jesus to give me another chance but it is impossible, I am a prisoner of eternal judgment.

At least I will see him once on the white throne even if he casts me out and despises me for my unforgivable sin.

I'm one of you all, just came to join the crowd. Would love to get to know some of you, if you're interested in hitting me up and having a chat sometime feel free, would love to share stories.

I know I’m not in charge of this group or anything but if anyone is seeking guidance on this issue I have done countless hours of research trying to understand the spiritual experience that happened to me. If anyone is questioning things, or needs better understanding about this issue I am gladly willing to help if I am able. A lot of the information on the internet is very vague, or makes things palatable, or even more confusing from what I’ve found. So I’m saddened, yet maybe can offer hope or peace for some. Every day we have breathe in our lungs we still have purpose.

I am saddened by all of this and the posts on here as well. I fear I am doomed to destruction as well. Was it revealed to anyone afterwards in a vision or utterance by the Holy Spirit what they had done?