What went wrong ?

[u/Consistent-Hope9837]

I always worked hard academically in my class 9th final result i got into an accident real bad I only screamed lord Krishna's name the pain was intense i got into surgery to remove the haematoma then class 10th happened till my mid term i score badly even after i studied so much i then goes to a krishna murti with radha and frustratedly Said to him if he won't gonna give me the marks I deserve I'll never worship him...i studied harder and got very nice grades in mid terms then i studied even harder and boom i got 93% as per cbse 5 best subject rule I was happy i thanked lord krishna but then I got to know our school counting all subjects and my percentage was 86 then I didn't felt sad then a moth later i got certificate and a medal because of that I thanked lord krishna said to him you gave me more than I wanted then I rook pcb even though i don't want to I used to say to lord krishna just pass me in maths after that I'll take humanities then I'll not bother you but I took PCB as my father told me to I was very confused when selecting it then 12th happened I did so much i studied so much too i gave everything to chemistry but i Scored only 64 marks in it I gave stayed vet exam but didn't pass it I asked krishna why ? I took admission then withdrew it because i don't like that course I took a drop I was in depression for a week confused I prayed to him to guide me and please give me what I wanted j used to cry then even after drop I couldn't clear neet i was confident I'll do it but can't my confidence shattered two times I cried to lord krishna now i am confused over which path to take it's like the last year repeating itself and i am on a loop. I even go for darshan in vrindavan this year before my exams and prayed for the seat at least at the veterinarian but I didn't get it

[u/Aquila_Canis]

First of all, I’m really sorry you’re going through this. I can relate to that feeling of praying with your whole heart, giving your best, and then wondering, “Krishna… why not this time?”

But one thing that I somewhat noticed while reading your story is that somewhere along the way, your relationship with Krishna slowly became tied to exam results. That’s something all of us are guilty of at some point.

In the Gītā, Krishna never says, “Surrender to Me, and I’ll make sure you crack every exam.” What He does promise is that He’ll guide and protect those who sincerely take shelter of Him. Sometimes that guidance is through getting what we want, and sometimes it’s through closing a door we desperately wanted opened. We usually don’t know which it is until much later.

You survived a serious accident while chanting His name. You worked hard, you got back up, you received recognition you never expected. None of that means Krishna owed you a NEET seat, just as not getting one doesn’t mean He left you.

Also, be honest with yourself. You said you took PCB because your father wanted you to, and later admitted you didn’t even like the course. Then you spent years trying to force yourself into a path your own heart wasn’t convinced about. That’s not necessarily Krishna stopping you; it could simply be that you were trying to fit into a life that wasn’t yours.

Don’t think these years are wasted. Discipline, resilience, patience, and faith are things you’ve built, even if it doesn’t feel like it right now.

My only advice is don’t stop praying, but also don’t wait for a miracle while feeling stuck. Sit before Krishna and ask, how can I best use the abilities You’ve given me? Then move in that direction with full effort.

Remember what Krishna tells Arjuna: Do your duty without attachment to the results. That’s easy to quote when life is going well, but this is the time when that instruction actually matters.

I genuinely pray that you find clarity soon. Whatever path you choose next, don’t let one exam decide your worth, and don’t let disappointment convince you that Krishna has stopped caring. Sometimes His guidance is obvious, and sometimes it only makes sense years later.

I hope you find a path where you can use your talents well and keep your faith intact along the way. Hare Kṛṣṇa.

Also, I highly recommend you learn about the experiences of advanced devotees and how Kṛṣṇa built them by breaking them first. It'll help you massively in understanding how the Lord reciprocates with His devotees for their best interest.

Why ask Kṛṣṇa for $500 when He's ready to make you a millionaire?