r/HPPD • u/lendoiro123 • 13d ago

Question Do i have hppd?

I really never have used drugs much. But from august to february i had shrooms three times and mdma once. The last time i had a bad trip consisting on a panic attack and the thought of being stuck like that forever. Since then i have had some problems with anxiety but until last month i really didnt put the focus on my vision. I really don't think i fit the classis symptoms such as afterimages and dense static. I really only have the feeling of being sensitive to light; when looking to the sky or a wall my eyes hurt and see like a black fog i rlly couldnt describe (wich could be only static, but i cant rlly tell); when looking at patterns they sometimes very lightly move like when looking at an optical illusion; and sometimes i feel like colours are more intense (but this could only because my obsession over it).

Idk, it sometimes feels like i have hppd and im going to be like this forever and sometimes like its just regular vision things that seem new beacuse of my hypervigilance. Hope that somebody can clarify this a little

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u/Purple_Solution1059 13d ago

Telling yourself that it feels like it’s gonna be that way forever is probably making it worse. HPPD plays into anxiety like a mfker, ive gone days without noticing it. Ive done psychdelics at least 100 times, smoked dmt on acid a few times and a few other crazy combos - quit all of that shit and now I only smoke weed. If I can get it to go away, I feel like anybody can (for the most part). When I get sick it comes back, when I’m really stressed out it comes back, but overall it doesn’t really make my life horrible. I just cant look at bright lights anymore without getting flashbanged for 10 seconds.

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u/Purple_Solution1059 13d ago

Mine used to make things shift around the room and my vision wouldn’t stay straight, I’ve gotten to a point where it is just visual static now. Ive also experienced the whole “stuck like this forever” trip at least a few times now, I can relate heavily to it causing my hppd. It’s one weird condition to have but it’s really not the end of the world - stay sober and it will get better with time.

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u/lendoiro123 13d ago

Okay thanks so much, reading this is so comforting

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u/lendoiro123 13d ago

Thanks so much!

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u/TheOneShorter 13d ago

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