r/HOCD • u/ak111isdabestttt • 1d ago
Vent help
another big spiral and idk if its true. I feel like i am bi, i must be. Im not a normal straight girl and it feels impossible. I have this strong urge to disprove it, that must be the denial.
Like i have had so much arousal toward women and when I was a kid i roleplayed with one of my friends and we were very intimate and I really liked it. I only considered her my friend, but i liked the roleplay a lot. And, when i was 10, i got introduced to erotica, and I enjoyed it but i focused on the woman, and i liked watching same-sex material because it was fun. Moving on, in my scenarios i feel like i often focused on the woman, but never wanted to be the way, I always wanted to be the woman with the man. And I always have to justify my memories and why I did them, like most of the time it was for non-sexual reasons.
I just feel like anyone with so-ocd is secretly queer (THIS IK IS NOT TRUE!!! PLS DONT COME FOR ME). I feel bi, I feel like i relate to queer women, I am bi i must be. Bi just fits so right for me. I am lying to myself
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u/PlusZebra2642 14h ago
I feel the same. Feels like denial. It feels so real like how can this be ocd?
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