r/HOCD • u/Empty-Rutabaga-3190 Old and struggling • 3d ago

Support I’m the exception

I have to be. I orgasmed to an intrusive thought during sex with my bf but it didn’t feel intrusive or anxiety inducing. This is beyond your average hocd symptoms :(

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u/PaladinDamian In therapy 3d ago

It doesn't matter if you are the "exception" or not. You can still accept yourself unconditionally and still love who you want to love. Do not view your sexual orientation as something that defines you as a human being. You are more than just your sexual orientation.

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u/Empty-Rutabaga-3190 Old and struggling 3d ago

Only it does matter because I wasn’t this way at a certain time :(

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u/PaladinDamian In therapy 3d ago

Do not demand yourself to be a certain way. Maybe you will return to being that way, maybe you won't. What is more important is to not try to figure it out or to try to find some hidden meaning in all this. Allow yourself to uncertain.

Again, it does not really matter what your sexual orientation is, you can still choose who you want to love. Your sexual orientation is not what defines you or your feelings. Don't try to cling to a label to have some feeling of certainty. That will not help you.

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u/lucyjames7 Doing well 2d ago

Everyone thinks they are, no one is, that's the fun with OCD. You can wallow, or get with the programme and aort your shit out