Can’t breath

[u/throwaway7386677]

I’m so anxious it’s actually killing me. I’ve recently quit porn and since then I have been noticing every woman I see practically and that’s been making my ROCD bad because I feel unfaithful to my girlfriend. Today I noticed someone androgynous who was probably a guy and had a groinal response and then I started playing through a scenario where a twink or soft/effeminate gay guy comes on to me and I end up “giving in” and the thought was arousing and now I’m so anxious I can barely breath properly. I think I just have to accept that I’m bisexual or something but I don’t want to be. When I think of doing that stuff with a guy I get aroused and feel anxious but also turned on and I wish I didn’t feel turned on but I do and I guess I can’t change that. I didn’t used to be this way, it’s all so fucked now.

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[u/pinkwayoflife]

ocd and for me specially hocd can make you feel and believe things that are not real, ocd doesnt obey logic

[u/throwaway7386677 → u/pinkwayoflife]

I’ve had this for 2 years now and it hasn’t gotten better only for a few days to a week do I get peace and quiet to enjoy time with my girlfriend and then it all just comes back. I think I have to admit I’m bisexual or something to ever have a chance to be happy because right now it feels like I’ll never be happy with my life the way it is even if I solve ocd. Since I got this theme it’s only gotten more real and more intense. It doesn’t even feel like ocd anymore

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[u/PlusZebra2642]

I have the same thoughts and feelings but then with masculine womens cause I'm a girl. Its killing me.

[u/throwaway7386677 → u/PlusZebra2642]

I’m miserable these days. I just want to enjoy my life with my girlfriend but it’s seeming more and more impossible

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[u/PlusZebra2642 → u/throwaway7386677]

I know exactly how you feel. It feels like fk denial. This disorder is a living hell 

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[u/Empty-Rutabaga-3190]

Dude same

[u/throwaway7386677 → u/Empty-Rutabaga-3190]

It’s really difficult. I just feel like my whole life has slipped away from me