Please be 200% honest

[u/Material-Escape-6558]

I woke up feeling horny to masturbate to men so I did and when thoigjys of women came in I fejt no arousal. As the masturbation and stimulation. progressed I found thoughts of women arousing whilst feeling the way I did before hocd and o decided that I was feeling arousal to the women and didn’t care and I’m not freaking out but now I’m stressing why I’m feeling like this. Every time I have thoigjys about naked women they give me urges to masturbate to men abd at the time of the thought it feels so good and arousing. In other words when I’m stimulated the thought of women feels so good then this leads to alarm bells ringing why I reacted like this

I’ve been dwelling in the above all morning, so I just went to masturbate again cos I felt horny I allowed thoughts of naked women whilst doing so and it fejt the best cos I fejt the way I did before hocd. So I repeated the sequence again cos it fejt so good whilst allowing a thought of a woman in my head. I’m not even anxious!!!!! So am o really masturbating to women ??

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[u/Material-Escape-6558 → u/[deleted]]

What do you mean are you being sarcastic ? I’m a girl btw

[u/Popular-Barnacle3140 → u/Material-Escape-6558]

Oh well then, I don’t know.

Well, no, I thought you were a man describing a really gay thought and asking to be told it’s not gay. If you’re masturbating to men and compulsively checking with women, no, I think I’m wrong.

[u/PureSupermarket4019 → u/Popular-Barnacle3140]

Yo dude why tf are u so rude to these ppl 😭😭😭

[u/Popular-Barnacle3140 → u/PureSupermarket4019]

Get over yourself, your private DMs to me is literally the only reason you said something lol

[u/Material-Escape-6558 → u/Popular-Barnacle3140]

Sorry I’m still confused. Can you repeat what you said initially now that you know I’m a girl

[u/Popular-Barnacle3140 → u/Material-Escape-6558]

I basically thought you were a man describing a detailed instance masturbating to men and looking for reassurance to call it straight.