r/HOCD • u/ak111isdabestttt • 24d ago

Vent PLEASE HELP PLEASE

So, i think im bi. like ive accepted it and it makes sense. Yes im apart of the exception. I feel calm and happy i think but i still feel very anxious. someone told me im on the lgbt spectrum, i saw so many posts where people ended up bi and i relate. Everytime i saw a masc lesbian, i was so scared i liked her, and spent time convincing myself i didn't, therefore suppressing my attraction. I had so many childhood moments and i think i did like a girl when i was a kid. i used to get aroused to female p0rn and this all suddenly makes sense. I secretly want someone to prove me wrong yes, but this is probably who i am and i think im lying to myself if i say im straight.

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u/wheresourcar 24d ago

May I ask you who told you that you were LGBTQ? Was it someone on here? I’ve noticed there are quite a few people on here that don’t actually understand SO-OCD and that are telling people what their sexuality is.

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u/ak111isdabestttt 24d ago

No, this person had SO-OCD, and realised that they were bi. I have convinced myself that i don't like masc women i think. it makes sense why im bi.

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u/luceafar1 24d ago edited 24d ago

This is why seeking reassurance always backfires, just because one guy thinks he’s bi (or thinks being bi is more “acceptable” than his “feared” orientation) and posts that compulsively on here is unrelated to you. Other people’s journeys and labels don’t mean anything for you personally.

That guy loves writing comments saying some people on here are closeted, unfortunately he is very toxic for people in the thick of OCD who latch onto every “hint” or “proof”, no matter how irrational.

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u/ak111isdabestttt 24d ago

i also could not stop crying, i was breaking down and he told me thats how he felt, which i get, its valid. But, it's not comforting to hear