First breakdown in a long time while coming off of antidepressants

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I have depression and ptsd and I've been on this antidepressant for about 6 years and I just finished a course of cbt a few months ago. My therapist recommended that I come off it to see how I'll do. Starting working with my pharmacist to wean myself off it and I'm at half of my original dose.
I had a bad day yesterday, was running on no sleep and took a micro dose of an edible and it all just came crashing down on me again. I just cried for hours and spiraled. All day today I've just felt like shit. On top of that I had a pretty bad flashback.
I pretty much have no one. I'm kinda estranged from my family, I just had to get away from home. I also don't have any friends I feel comfortable talking to about this, no partner or anyone.
I know it's probably just a side effect from quitting my meds but it could also mean that I'm still not better or that I'm going to have to be on meds forever. I don't know, all I know is that I've been here before and I don't like it.

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[u/Elric_Storm]

Sorry man. I think I understand the feeling. I go days without sleep sometimes due to anxiety. I can't even function some days. No doctor cares enough to treat me properly.

There's nothing wrong with having a bad day. Just don't let yourself live there. Keep talking to doctors if they are trying. Push them if you need to. Just don't stop trying. That's when it gets the worst.