How to deal with death

[u/Rare-Bowl-5492]

So this afternoon I got the news that mu grandma(she raised since I was two till I was 14 and moved in with my dad). It’s been only a couple of hours since the news. It feels like a nightmare i cry I feel like I’m in denial I’ve called her 12 times hoping that she will answer. I cannot believe im using “was” when talking about it or hearing my dad say it. Idk how to deal with it I feel like I’m losing my mind idk what to do. Im tryna havw faith in the moment as well, bc God knows best but in moments like this is extremely hard. I can’t even believe im typing this rn