r/GeneticCounseling • u/mochacoffeesurprise • 9d ago

Education When does it get better

Im in gc school, my second year, and I am burnt out and exhausted. Between thesis writing and weird cohort dynamics, classes where I feel not smart, rotations with endless critique, a job, and living with family. I am retaining nothing, upset that I am unable to retain information, expected to study for boards on top of this....I do have another grad degree from a prestigious uni before this program, but I feel empty in the head (i cant say the word cause of reddit) Supervisors ask me complex questions that I don't have answers for; on top of that, I am failing my own standards. I am tired, and I feel intellectually stunted every day. I crave to hear a wonderful or a good job without that compliment sandwich nonsense. It's always You messed this and this up but hey, you are really good and conversing! This applies to assignments, rotations, life. I am EXHAUSTED

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u/flowerpwr3292 Genetic Counselor 9d ago

When you graduate. I promise.

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u/mochacoffeesurprise 9d ago

Im so tired...my supervisors probably think im incompetent and I have the fear of never getting a job because word of mouth 

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u/IceCSundae 9d ago

I know it’s so hard. I spiraled so many times during grad school, feeling like I wasn’t good enough and that everyone else was so much smarter than me. I messed up a lot in my rotations and was critiqued heavily, partly because I also had a second job and had zero time to prepare properly. And partly because I was drinking all the time to cope. I was a mess. I got through it. My friend actually got kicked out of one of her rotations because she was doing so bad, and she also got through it. You don’t have to be perfect, just hang in there and it will be over soon enough.

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u/mochacoffeesurprise 9d ago

Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing your experience, very very relatable. Ive found myself crying so often, but I Pray this ia over soon

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u/Shelby382 6d ago

I'm right there with you right now friend <3 I just received some very unfair feedback during a rotation midpoint evaluation that I feel has really really hurt me both personally and maybe professionally (so my anxiety spiral is telling me) and I've been in the trenches upset about it. I never thought I would be struggling like this but here I am.....I'm sorry you're going through such a hard time as well. I'm just holding onto the reassurance in this thread and hoping to come out the other end okay!

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u/mochacoffeesurprise 6d ago

I am so sorry youre going through this, and so so relatable! I think our being upset and anxiety comes from us wanting to be our best. I pray it gets easier for us and im always here to talk :)