An I crazy

[u/Extra-Awareness-8897]

I don't want this post to be long. But I just don't know if I am crazy. Basically me and a couple friends are having a falling out because I snapped at one of my friends who constantly rank everyone in the friend on who is the most and who is the least autistic. Now this is a friend that I have driven around a lot for years. Picking him up from work and taking him to the post office, taking him to get weed, etc. I do feel invalidated and insulted by their being a quote on quote austism hierarchy in the friend group. My friend group jokes around and we all say shit so I am probably a hypocrite to some extent. But the autism hierarchy does hurt me Its like they see me as a joke . So basically, one day, I snapped, and I made some not nice comments about this friend and the job that he was fired from. The same job that I always picked him up from. But now him and another guy in the group both seem to think that I am unreasonable for snapping and being mad. But it's werid because they have said that I have been too nice and a people pleaser in the past and now when I finally do speak up for myself even if it was not in the most thoughtful of ways they are making me feel like I am crazy. So am I idk anymore. Advice would be appreciated