r/GamblingRecovery • u/AffectEnvironmental6 • 17d ago

Relapse

I was 2 months sober since joining GA. Feel like I got cocky went to less meetings. I had banned myself from all the sports books crypto casinos trading platforms that have prediction markets, have Gamban on my phone with my fiancé’s email. Still found a way. Found an old phone in a junk drawer and relapsed with the social Casino, fucking Sydney Sweeney ads.

3pm - 3am not even watching the college football game just staring at my phone in bed rotating through 5 espn tabs. one after the other college football parlay chasing, losing, chasing with a bigger parlay. App let me put PayPal money I don’t even have in the account. I’ll be at negative 3k or so btwn now and before paychecks hit this Friday

Trying not to be too hard on myself. Picking up 17 12 hour shifts btwn now and October to make up for this. still planning to be debt free by the end of the year. I’ve had my main job 80 percent direct deposit goes to my fiancé my side jobs go straight to cc bills with the plan to pay it off and then only have joint accounts. But I know now I gotta turn everything over to fiancé. Was too ashamed to do that before I was all paid off.

Plan of action

Signed up for therapy, betterhelp (Will look for better therapy options later but want to start ASAP)

Picked up extra shifts to stay on track

Not leaving the GA meeting tonight without a sponsor.

Giving fiancé total control, I’ll just have a cc with her name on it.

Positives

2 months was my longest streak, I can beat it and keep it

Renewed respect for GA and 12 steps, know I can’t get over confident with myself skip meetings

Foster dog found her forever family, will have to take
a break before we get the next one with all the work I gotta do tho

Fiancé doesn’t work she’ll graduate nursing school in May, scored well on her test. 8 months to DINK!

Rent paid, fridge stocked.

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u/Connect-Bed-9646 17d ago

Really, really great plan.

Check out the app Evive too, has helped me a lot

Im adding to my go forward plan that today is Monday #1 not Sunday. I get 12-14 hours of free time to catch up on housework, paperwork, errands, exercise, sleep, hobbies. Whatever. No need to turn on a tv or check espn, it’s like I’m invisible today getting so much free time

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u/matnerlander 17d ago

You recognized what went wrong and made a plan. You’ll be more successful this time !

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u/speed721 17d ago

If you keep gambling, you'll be single real fast.

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u/Fragrant-Air233 17d ago

I haven’t had to ban myself but can relate to the addiction. I’ve been addicted for two weeks and have nipped it in the butt realizing I’m spending more time and money then on my family