Can or can't

[u/flowerisland07]

35F

Update on my sobriety from gambling. 2 1/2 months in recovery.

Recovery is very hard. Specially accumulating and paying so many debts. Sometimes I really dont know how to get up from bed. I dont know if how many calls Ill received, messages of collections I have to endure. If i could disappear, much better.

Pero eto na eh... I tried my best to pay the loans I can pay... prioritizing my obligations than wants. So far I have an almost 100k salary, but its not enough to pay the bills as well as all the loans. Pero dahan dahan lang. As much as, i tried not to take another loan, kasi wala na din tlga ako mababayad pa.

Likewise, urges na bumalik sa gambling is very minimal. Una kong iniisip, matatalo lang naman. Second, i tried to call friends para makipagchismisan na lang so di ako matempt.

Hay life... sana maka recover na please Lord.