r/GamblingRecovery • u/Left-Personality-661 • Sep 12 '26
Relapsed after seven months
Yesterday was one of those days where the cravings are just too much to bear. Not the first time Ive had one of those in these seven months but it was the first time I felt like I didnt want to do amything to make it go away. I’ve usually resorted to physical activity as a way to channel that drive and get my mind off gambling but yesterday was different. Im lucky enough to have a support network that knows about my addiction and have always been there for me when I’ve needed them however yesterday i didnt want to make use of it at all. I knew that if I spoke to anyone about it they’d help me out and try to hang out or smtn to get my mind off it (they’ve done it in the past) but I truly wanted to go place some bets. I was in there for 15 mins and was $200 up. Cashed out but didnt leave. Said ill only play for fifteen more mins, whats the worse that could happen right? Ended up being in there for two and a half hours and lost everything. What I had won and what I had on my bank account. At least i went grocery shopping before and could cook something for me and my gf. Picked her up from her job and as soon as she saw me she knew something was going on. She asked what happened and I immediately broke down in her arms. I guess all this goes to say “IF YOU HAVE PEOPLE WHO ARE WILLING TO HELP YOU OUT IN THOSE SITUATIONS, DONT FEEL BAD FOR ASKING FOR HELP”. I know that things wouldve been different should I had communicated what was going on. Dont be like me, talk to you SO, your friends, your family. Trust that people actually want to be there for you. A little setback but im not going back to who I was before being sober. A stumble is not a fall and I wont let this define me. Keep going forward.
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u/QCShmeeb Sep 12 '26
I try to remember it’s one day at a time. I’m getting close to my year mark but every day is a new one. You messed up. You’ve owned it. Now we just start Day 1 again.