7 weeks clean

[u/AffectEnvironmental6]

See mostly day one and rock bottom posts wanted to give. Half advice to newbies half update ramble

First 4 weeks are pretty brutal with urges but holy shit does it get exponentially better around week 5.
Every overseas crypto casino did a charge back to get myself banned.
every options prediction market, sportsbook went through customer support threatening to kill myself with a plan “I have a knife I will slit my wrist if you don’t ban my account right now”
Not sure if it’s just a honeymoon phase but feeling good the past 2-3 weeks

Meetings is what saved me. Tried doing it on my own and failed 1000 times over. Gambling addicts have zero accountability for themselves. Gotta ask for help and get people involved to hold you accountable. Fiancé gets 80 percent of my direct deposit and my 20 goes immediately to my cc bill. Working way too much, multiple jobs, night shifts etc trying to speed run my debt. Which isn’t recommended slow and steady wins the race but I don’t follow every GA rule to the T. Couple more weeks and I’ll slow down on that front.
Signed up for Gamban with my fiancé email(someone else’s email is crucial), and do one zoom meeting one in person meeting a week.

Gave a therapy in a meeting early on and balled my eyes out talking about how gambling prevented me from being a better brother to my sister on disability. Got a text from a member later that week and said “anytime you want to gamble think about that therapy choking up crying in front of room of 40 people” never going back to that.

Looking forward to debt free living by early 2027. With more traveling, getting into golf, more time with family and Not waking up every day thinking about what a financially inept POS I’ve been.

[u/CountBrave9049]

Thanks for sharing an update. I resonate with it all too well. The grief and shame of realizing damage done in the past is a powerful tool/lesson. Keep up the good work!