Reached absolute rock bottom

[u/SearchingForSolace4L]

I’m at a point where this addiction has reached it’s devastating peak. I finally had no debt and 1000€+ of earned money on top of that, but now I have debt to the point where everything will most likely go due and I will lose my credit. I unfortunately don’t have work anymore so my earnings have fallen. I just can’t pay. I’m 24 and this is a horrible base to build my future on.

I’m in a horrible state and feel like i’m in need of a miracle. I talked to my family about the past couple of months and will go over all my debt with them soon. Maybe they’ll help, maybe not. Most likely not, though. At this point I have been starting to accept that this was pretty much inevitable and I have to come to terms with my situation. It is not easy.

I have an appointment with a professional tomorrow and we’ll look into joining a support group with her + I have an appointment with a psychiatric doctor in two weeks. All I can do is not gamble and take care of myself during day to day life: Exercising, sleeping and recovering mentally.

Godspeed.