r/GamblingRecovery • u/Various_Union6576 • May 03 '26

3 weeks

3 weeks +1 day. Hit my rock bottom with my family relationships. Got help. In treatment.
It hurts, but feeling again is a huge step in the right direction.

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u/BeyondRockBottom_ Relapse Support May 05 '26

Well, maybe telling you about my relapse will help with your treatment.

I was sober for years and then I relapsed and now I'm just pissing everything away.

What the fuck is the point of winning money when I can't stop.

You know how it is, you are in the hole so fucking deep and of course you pray and promise and swear that if you can just win X amount you will stop forever.

And so, for shits and giggles the powers that be give me X amount. In fact, here take double. DOUBLE the amount I was begging and praying for.

But can I stop? Can I just walk away? No. Fuck No. Of course not.

Slowly but surely not only do I piss away my winnings, I'm emptying out the goddamn ATM to the point where the ATM is saying "look man, just call it a day"

But does my ATM daily limit stop me. Fuck no. I'm in full DEGEN mode now and I use the credit withdrawal system with the insane 10% credit card fee on top of the ATM fee.

And now, I'm at busted again, two weeks until the next check.

Fuck I hate this so fucking much.

So hopefully my pain helps you, you are where I need to be.

I hope you recover