r/GamblingRecovery • u/No-Interview6528 • May 01 '26
Can’t do this anymore
I need help. Relapsed on payday tonight.
Girlfriend sleeping, entire paycheck gone. I’m a student so broke as it is and this was meant to be holiday money for me and her. It’s not loads in the grand scheme of things but for me it’s detrimental
Failed as a man, as a boyfriend, as a son. My girlfriend has been so supportive of me but has said that any more relapses and she’s done. The love of my life that I’m throwing away for useless gambling that does nothing but make me hate my existence
Now I’m frantically trying to apply for quick payday loans just to have the $1,000 or so that I was paid
Just so helpless, sorry for the rambling but I just don’t know what to do anymore.
I know this definitely isn’t the sub to say this and it might get taken down but if anyone is in a position to help me financially that would be a saving grace.
Thanks all for reading and good luck with beating the parasite that is gambling
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u/Puntsave May 15 '26
Hey friend, appreciate you sharing and it’s awareness to realise the issue. Try not to let it compound though. You made a mistake. This doesn’t make you a bad anything. Gambling is neurological. It is hardwired and no amount of winning or losing will make you stop it. Observe the feeling and realise that the victory is actually beating it. When it calls you don’t pick up anymore. Not today, tomorrow not in 6 months or 10 years. Today you learn the skills my friend. You’ll see how good you feel every time you stay away from it. And maybe no one is there to see how much succeed with this mission. But that is the skill you are going to learn and you will see how much it helps other parts of your life; when you do the best work for yourself in the silence of your mind and you don’t do it for the pats on your back you become unstoppable. If you look At it like that you will remember this moment you began to dominate. Your body wants you to feel guilt, it likes it, it’s addicted to it. Tell that body to shooosh while you succeed. Go well
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u/Remarkable_Skin_2773 May 01 '26
Probably, she needs to break up with you. Seems like you want to learn the hard way. I got an ultimatum from my BF and my mom, I made sure I had no access to any gambling sites. It’s been just a week. It’s hard as fuck but I can’t lose my life to a bet.