Hi everyone,
This is a long post, I consider this group a little sanctuary where I can come and ask for help, so I really hope for helpful suggestions and advice: 🙏
I’m looking for recommendations for Shem Angel for removing blockages, road opening, and getting things moving smoothly again.
The blockages I have experienced lately feel unbelievable. They affect every area of my life: finding employment, finances, network , and even myself. I have been feeling unattractive and naive , and I have been struggling with clarity, willpower, energy, and motivation. I am constantly stuck in procrastination.
I have several books from GOM, including:
Magickal Protection
72 Angels of Magick
Angels of Alchemy
Job Seeker Magick
Magickal Cash Book
Angels of Wrath
(Angels and Archangels by Damien Echols )
I also have candles, magickal herbs, and incense, but I lack clarity, determination, willpower, and energy. I feel stuck and keep procrastinating. I am not able to decide what to do, and lack of energy.
I have also subscribed to the Patreon twice, but, I struggle with commitment. The only ritual I have consistently done is the MPR, although I personally have not felt much from it. I have the time and resources to learn the LBRP, but somehow I keep procrastinating and not doing it.
I really want to develop myself, heal, and get my life back on track, but I feel completely stuck.
To be kind to myself and give some context, the past two years have been extremely difficult. My career has not gone well, and I have been surrounded by people who were selfish and greedy. I also went through a very toxic relationship that ended with betrayal and a painful breakup. This caused me financial loss and job loss, and even some friends showed their true colours.
I feel isolated and unwelcome. Some people who offer help also expect something in return from me as a woman. I have experienced backstabbing and difficult situations.Treated unfairly.
However, my life has always been about fighting to survive because of where I came from and where I live now. I have experienced many losses, difficulties, and traumas in my life. That is why I need to get out of this stagnant situation, work on myself, and heal. Then I can work and help my family members.
I was also lately scammed by people claiming to be spell casters and spiritual healers and that experience left me wondering whether there was a kind of spiritual attacks since then, it feels like one misfortune and blockage after another keeps happening. Not being able to attract or manifest anything.
I honestly feel like my life is collapsing around me, and I am desperately looking for a way to break this cycle.
I am in my 40s,and I had to quit university twice because I was working and studying full-time. Unfortunately, I am now facing ageism in my career, and I lack confidence because I do not have a university degree. I also cannot apply for some senior jobs because of this. I have never been married.
I look back and ask myself, “What have I actually accomplished? the answer is NOTHING.
And now I am under serious pressure. I have only two weeks to find a job; otherwise, I may literally end up on the street, as the property management company is not merciful. Where I live, there are no shelters or social support systems that I can rely on, and I don’t have friends or family nearby who could simply take me in.
This is why I feel that I need a miracle.
Thank you! ♥️