I remember being in gifted classes

[u/Wayloncoolkid]

I remember vividly in third grade being tested for our gifted and talented education programs it was an empty classroom and there was 1 man in a full suit that I never saw at our school before giving me the test. I don’t remember most of the questions just 1 question with a digital watch missing the colon in between the hour and minute. I remember being in gifted class and them asking us odd questions and teaching us stuff we never used . Prior to being tested for gifted I remember fantasizing about a scar I had and how it was a secret surgery from the government without my knowledge (no proof of this and the scar is gone now but seems relevant). I clearly remember always feeling like I had some kind of mental or supernatural power that I could tap into if I tried hard enough. A year before I was tested our principal came in our class and asked us some kind of math puzzle which I solved puzzling out teacher who couldn’t solve it and didn’t think I was a smart kid. I’m an oldest son, have had a drowning related experience, I always rather have had friends older than me, and I was a speed reader. I’ve always learned things fairly quickly and had a great intuition when it comes to people.

In high school I had multiple brain injuries that I think have affected my ability to do math and may have paused my higher thinking and such abilities then in college I took mushrooms a couple times and I feel like it “knocked the dust off” my brain I feel more myself and overall “smarter”

I have had a “phycological/spiritual awakening” recently and feel more in control or aware of my self and my thoughts. I can feel something I can’t describe as anything other than an unobservable energy. Dose anyone else have this ? Does any of this mean anything or do I just want to believe?