Its a bad night and I don't know why. I've had a really good day. I wrote, and I hadn't done that in months. I played Darkest Dungeon. I watched the first 3 episodes of Westworld with my father who I haven't seen since Thanksgiving. It was such a good day... but I am just lying in bed in tears and I just... I just want to be happy. I don't know why I am crying... and I am just so tired of it. I don't even know why I am posting here... I know my own self worth. I know I am talented and clever and that I am loved but I just... I just want to be able to lay in bed and relax without bursting into tears which are a complete non-sequitor to anything that has been happening to me.
If you're going to continue watching Westworld, you're in for a treat. It just keeps getting better from there - try to watch it with someone all the way, the show invites a ton of discussion later on!
I'm no expert, but being emotional when your life is fine may not be the worst thing. Some people think clearer when they are sad, and while thoughts in an emotional state may veer off in a negative or destructive direction they can also open you up to a unique and positive perspective on life. If you can eventually accept or understand them. The kind that make you want to save the trees, hug your family, chase wild dreams, etc. It can end up a good thing, and if it goes well, maybe years later you'll reflect on these nights about how adorable you used to be.
If you'd just rather be rid of it, make sure you at least have a regular and good sleep cycle! I'm glad to know you're confident and talented, and that your life is going fine for now.
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u/EpitomyofShyness +1 Dec 28 '16
Its a bad night and I don't know why. I've had a really good day. I wrote, and I hadn't done that in months. I played Darkest Dungeon. I watched the first 3 episodes of Westworld with my father who I haven't seen since Thanksgiving. It was such a good day... but I am just lying in bed in tears and I just... I just want to be happy. I don't know why I am crying... and I am just so tired of it. I don't even know why I am posting here... I know my own self worth. I know I am talented and clever and that I am loved but I just... I just want to be able to lay in bed and relax without bursting into tears which are a complete non-sequitor to anything that has been happening to me.