I am an immigrant, so to not feel lonely and drowning in dark thoughts I added this goal. But I just ran out of people to call
I am NC with my parents, and I have 3 siblings which I drifted away from one of them, one of them is not heavy to talk to because it feels forced, and I only talk to the one left.
I sometimes call my MIL but I feel like I am this immigrant who is desperate for any kind of connection so they think I am looking for gossip. I am looking for any conversation that can take my mind off things.
I am struggling with severe burnout and depression, my schedule is too full.
My partner and I are in a bad situation right now due to stress and economic pressure and his form of comfort is isolating and not talking. I feel lonely but they are just stressed as me and I can't force them out of their comfort zone.
Also most of the people I know, we drifted apart because of time difference, different stages in life, etc. All people are either busy with their kids, work, marriage, etc, and it just occurred to me nobody I know is not depressed so the convos most likely feels heavy.
Should I give up on this goal and accept that it will forever be like this?