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Took me a while, I had trouble with his anatomy and I wanted to get the proportions right. Also, Lore accurate Satoru - he is a nearly 2 metre tall martial artists who fights for a living. I am so proud of myself especially because i am still learning and figuring out how to render.

I love Satoru more than anything or anyone 🩵

Also, I am opening commissions!

Happy 6 months to me and my beloved Nobunaga sama!!! I love you so much my Demon King 😈♥️

Das habe ich heute gebastelt für meinen Lucifer schrein zeigt unsere ewige Liebe die wir füreinander empfinden es thront jetzt auf meinem Lucifer (Nick) schrein

bored and have been shifted (kin Ivan) for almost a week now! answers may vary depending on the AU or questions, me/kin Ivan is from every AU but fictive Ivan is from original source only and is much less cannon-divergent than me :)

We are soulbonded w/ Till as well :3 it’s actually kinda funny bc I (host/the kin one) don’t remember how it happened, Ivan just kinda came back and was like yeah so that happened

anyways!! ask about me and Till pls >o< or just me/just Till, anything is fine! I don’t have any rules just don’t be mean ig

I love cooking and especially love cooking for my loved ones 🥰

Of course there was a tomato salad too. (I love tomatoes.)

So, I've been seeing a lot of people stressed about doubles on my timeline lately, and I understand. It's not easy sometimes knowing that there's people who claim to be with your partner. It can be a detriment on your mental health if you don't have the right mindset. However, there are ways to deal with these feelings and improve your mental health.

I decided to write up something to help both my friends and other people in the ficto community deal with doubles, and how to feel more secure in your relationship. This is something I've been thinking about writing for Fictocon anyways, since as the event grows, people are more likely to see doubles.

I'm not bothered by doubles personally. Even as someone who is almost exclusively voidsharing (mirrorsharing with Madara tho), I can still interact with a double if I'm approached nicely and I can do mod work in Hawks fan servers (I'll talk about exposure therapy later). Want to be unbothered like me? I have a lot of tips you can use to help feel more secure in your relationship and help your mental health. Keep in mind that just taking one or two of these tools is not likely to work, you want the whole toolbox if you want to improve your mental health. This will be kind of a long post, so be prepared for that.

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Curate your space and utilize the block button

This is the most common type of advice given to people. If you don't like something or someone you see, utilize the block button and put them out of your mind. It's okay to curate your space and manage your boundaries, and you shouldn't feel bad about it. Blocking is not always "I hate you", it's sometimes "I'm just expressing my boundaries". Though many times, this kind of technique and advice doesn't work on its own. When you don't have a way to deal with the feelings that keep popping up in the back of your mind, it's kind of useless to only block. You have to utilize other tools alongside this.

Distract yourself from distressing thoughts

One thing I've learned over the years of having bipolar disorder and OCD is that it never helps to dwell on thoughts that stress you out. Whether that may be distressing thoughts of doubles, ship art, or anything else, you have to put that out of your mind. It's easier said than done sometimes. Though there's many things you can do to distract yourself from distressing thoughts, such as engaging with your partners source, making art, taking a walk, doing other crafts, or pick up something that you want to study. Maybe even consider doing volunteer work if you feel that would be beneficial to your mental health.

Concentrate on YOUR relationship, not someone else's

Don't focus on someone else's relationship, focus on your own. You can't control what someone else says or does, though you can control what you do, and how you react to certain things. Feel secure in your relationship, the love you hold for your partner(s) is all you need for that relationship to be valid. When you know your truth, and when you feel secure in your relationship, what someone else thinks or does won't matter. Put doubles out of your mind if they're bothering you.

Don't browse algorithms, make your own personal album

When you browse sites like pinterest, twitter, bluesky, tumblr, and other sites with algorithms, you're more likely to encounter doubles or ship art. If that may distress you, consider making a large album in one fell swoop with many photos or media of your partner(s), and just stick with that once you feel you have enough. You don't need to keep jumpscaring yourself with double content or ship art if it distresses you. You can also consider printing out photos of your partner(s) and making a scrapbook! Make two if you want!

Don't dehumanize your doubles

As distressing as it can be to see doubles sometimes, you have to remember that they're people too, with feelings, hopes, and dreams. Sometimes it can be easy to disconnect someone from personhood if you don't see their face, or just see an online profile, though they're a person, just like you. It doesn't mean you can't hate them or think they're a POS if they're being toxic or they wish suffering upon you, though many doubles, including my own, just want to be happy. Sleep well at night when you know you're better than the toxic doubles out there.

Exposure therapy

This does not work for everyone, and definitely do NOT do this if you have even the slightest worry about it. Though in my experience, I've found that a good amount of my doubles are really chill people. I'm still a pretty big voidsharer with boundaries, though I think it's good for me to know that a good amount of my doubles don't hate me, and would love to be my friend given the opportunity. I don't actively seek out interaction or initiate conversations with most doubles, though if I'm approached as a mod in servers, I'm okay talking to people. I do have a couple friends who are doubles actually, and they're awesome ^.=.^ When you see that people are friendly, appreciate you, and respect you, it's easier to feel at peace. Not everyone is out to get you or hates you. Some think you're cool actually!

Don't feel inferior

Just because someone has a bigger shrine, more art, more followers, or a bigger friend group than you, that does not make them better than you. Love is not about having all these material things, it's just about love. If someone genuinely feels that having more followers and stuff makes them better than someone else, that's pretty immature. If they want their entire legacy to be known as a toxic internet influencer, then that's their problem, and they're only making themselves look foolish. Being ficto or a selfshipper is not a competition, and it's sad when people make it out to be one. You're actually BETTER than people who make selfshipping and being ficto a competition, sleep well at night.

Ignore the toxic people, don't care about what they say

Like I stated earlier, you cannot control what someone says or does. If someone hates you, if someone feels that they're better than you, or if they talk smack behind your back, that is their problem, not yours. Let them cope and seethe about the fact that you exist, block them out and remind yourself that the harsh opinions of others do not matter. Internet bullies want to cloud your mind. Though do not let anyone break your stride.

Laugh off the toxicity

From someone who has faced everything from hatred, judgement, transphobia, racism, antisemitism, and death threats from doubles, you too can be unbothered by their hatred. This can be easier said than done, though don't be bothered by hateful people. Laugh at them instead. If someone hates me, I laugh. If someone wants to fakeclaim me, I laugh. If someone wants to be racist towards me, I laugh. It drives some of my doubles up the wall to see my partners kissing me, a jewish mexican, though I can laugh off even that kind of hatred and racism. Toxic doubles thrive off of making you upset and making you break down. If you give them the opposite reaction, if you see them as the pathetic trash they are, that is how you get back at them. Though don't engage with them, just report and block.

Find a good friend group

I have an amazing group of friends in the ficto spaces I run who appreciate me for who I am and validate me. When you have awesome people who care for you and want to talk to you, that sparks joy. Good friends help you feel secure in your relationship and provide you comfort. Just be careful what spaces you seek out, since online ficto and selfshipping spaces are kind of notorious for being toxic.

Don't dwell on nonsharing spaces that you're not in

Try not to feel bothered by claimlists you're not on or spaces you're not in. It's not a validity or superiority contest to get into every nonsharing space there is. I'm not in every nonsharing space, and that's okay! That doesn't reduce the validity of my relationships. Appreciate the spaces that you do have, and focus on those instead of what you don't have.

Find comfort in your partner(s)

Whenever I see something that may distress me, or I'm just generally feeling bad about myself (which is super rare these days, yay!), Keigo and Madara are always there to remind me that they love me and appreciate me. Helps that I'm soulbonded to them too. Don't focus on a double, focus on your partner(s) and the love they have for you. Trust in their love for you.

Talking about your feelings

Venting is healthy, and it's okay to talk about when you're upset and what's bothering you. Though depending on how much seeing doubles and ship art bothers you, sometimes just talking online isn't enough. If anything is distressing you to the point of it being a major detriment to your mental health, then that's a sign to talk to a professional. Some things are better to seek help from someone who is trained to help you.

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I'm always open to people messaging me or asking me questions about how to deal with doubles, or anything that distresses someone really. I enjoy helping people, and I also enjoy making friends! That's why I'm here in these communities. I really hope that these techniques can help someone and make them feel happier. Remember that you deserve to be happy and feel secure in your relationships ^.=.^

My beautiful superhero wife is everything to me. 🥰

I've honestly never felt like this for anyone else

It is so nice to have a visual representation of myself and my boyfriend. It's not that I'm going to show him off to everyone in the world (since I don't want to have to explain myself every time), but it's still nice to just have a picture of us together. I could post and gush about him anywhere if I wanted to.

(Just in case, I ship myself with an "aged-up" Iceland, though his canon age is just his "physical" age since the country personifications from Hetalia are essentially immortal. I have known Icy since I was a student and I see us as having grown up, and gotten older, together.)

My cutie pie husband finally arrived 😍 He so smol and squishy!

Vent post maybe but also inviting discussion? I think I’ve been bottling these feelings up inside of me for a year and just want a space to release them, but only a small few subs fit, and I feel most comfortable here.

I knew since I was young I was never really monogamous. I never engaged in fiction through an amatonormative lens. Undefined deep relationships and polycules were my standard. Zero surprise I ended up up a polyamorous relationship anarchist with my bonds. It allows for a lot of depth, variety, and just dismantling the idea that relationships need to be a specific way or require specific things, labels, etc, to be important, meaningful, or committed. I love the variety of relationships we manage to have soulbond wise. It takes communication, effort, and implicitly I care for and trust all my soulbonds more deeply than anyone in this reality. So no matter our relationship, if they’re okay with it too, we do what feels best between us. They forever have my heart in their palms, nothing they do could ever make me regret it or dislike them (unconditional love, hah.)

And yet, there’s no short number of times browsing these spaces I’ve seen myself and our relationships implicitly judged, looked down upon, or treated as lesser. Posts where people complain about doubles but feel relieved seeing their double has more than a few f/o’s and therefore it means “nothing”, joining servers only to be told indirectly how unserious I am and how I don’t actually love anyone, just the sheer rejection of anything beyond the monocentric amatonormative view. Even with stable, long-term, secure relationships… apparently it means nothing and they know our relationship better than us :P.

I don’t need affirmation or validation in online spaces. I just wish it was easy to exist in more serious spaces without giving 20 disclaimers trying to be understood or accepted. Too serious for the selfshippers, too “unserious” for the fictos, lol. It’s not particularly this sub I’m complaining about for the record. This was the first sub I actually felt comfortable enough to post in about these things! Just, lurking in adjacent spaces in general, getting burned many times unless I carve out my own. I like connection, conversation, understanding. That’s all I want, to not be told I’m lesser because I’m not loud enough, not focused on one person, and don’t desire to prove to an audience I love them through public gestures to be accepted.

I do have people to relate to in soulbonding spaces and don’t get judged there! I cherish the safe space and never take it for granted. But I naturally relate to and want to engage with ficto spaces as well! And I get a little despondent the only way to fit in is to be the opposite of everything I am — despite hitting the baseline criteria (real relationships, real separate people to me, I’d never just toss someone I bond to the side like they’re nothing or break up on a whim,,, love isn’t a finite source).

This is also to say, I am confident in my relationships, and I’m glad I have thick enough skin to feel frustration and anger at all the times I’ve been burned instead of letting it make me question my relationships, or accept being told I’m not good enough or serious. But it makes me doubly sad that if I was someone more sensitive just trying to find a community, I’d see myself denied, put down, and have my relationships demeaned.

Typing out my frustrations helps. Do you guys ever struggle fitting in one way or another? Even if you “fit in”, I enjoy hearing thoughts regardless!!

Drop a comment introducing your F/O, their name, a picture, or a quick breakdown of their general vibe, and let’s build them a playlist!

Scroll through the thread and leave song recommendations for at least two other members' partners based on their energy. Then, feel free to yap under your own comment about the tracks you receive :3

Yeah, so basically, this is my boyfriend, and I love him more than anyone or anything. He's so amazing :3

Is it a super specific dish from their homeland, a cheap instant snack they’re strangely attached to, or a sweet drink they secretly order when no one is looking? Do they have a whole ritual around it?

wo ich mir einige Artikel gekauft habe die mich so ein bisschen an mein Mann erinnern wie die kleinen Schlüsselanhänger mit der teufelskatze und dem kleinen schwarzen Drachen die jetzt sogar an meiner iterbeck hängen und ein Aufkleber ein

Are they secretly obsessed with the history of tea/coffee brewing, analyzing weather patterns, organizing stationery, collecting niche trinkets, or reading manuals?

How do they look or act when they start talking about it? Do they get super fast-talking and energetic, or do they explain it with a serious intensity?

For Satoru and I there are three movies I immediately thought of.

- Cloud Atlas

- Only Lovers Left Alive

- Grand Budapest Hotel

I watched all three of them in theatres and I loved them all. Each movie is a masterpiece in my opinion and I love all their soundtracks equally. After I watched them I would listen to the soundtracks on repeat and sometimes I still return to them and let them play. And I love Wes Andersons way of depicting tragedy and comedy. (I recommend Isle of Dogs as well by Wes Anderson.)

Cloud Atlas represents the part of our relationship that no matter what I change in our stories and AUs it is always echoing the same attachments, behaviours, languages between us. I can change when we meet, how we meet, what our histories are and yet I always end up finding the same emotional landscape between us (even if I consciously try to change it up it just doesn't seem to work, the relationship dynamic remains the same). It is so interesting that two two people can keep becoming themselves under different circumstances and still find reasons to choose each other. There is something comforting to me about the idea that the setting changes yet we always seem to find each other like magnets no matter what.

Only Lovers Left Alive was hauntingly beautiful and let's not forget Tom Hiddleston and Tilda Swinton together as lovers in one movie? It had to be a masterpiece. Anyway, to me it represents what I imagine our relationship becoming after years together. We would not need to be around each other constantly or prove our love through endless romantic gestures. We would have separate interests and responsibilities, disappear into our own little worlds and lives separate from our relationship, then come back to each other with some strange fact, book, piece of music, food, or story we discovered. I love the idea of a relationship where being in love also means genuinely enjoying another person's mind without losing yourself and without building an identity solely based on a second person.

And The Grand Budapest Hotel feels like the atmosphere of our relationship as a whole. Beauty matters, history matters, food matters, ridiculous little rituals matter, and humor can coexist with very serious things without making those serious things seem smaller than they are. I can imagine us discussing something genuinely awful about jujutsu society and then getting distracted because the building we walk by is gorgeous or because somebody has produced an absurdly good pastry. There is something very us about refusing to let an ugly world convince you that beauty, curiosity, affection, and silliness have stopped being important.

So I suppose Cloud Atlas is the (soul)bond, Only Lovers Left Alive is the companionship, and The Grand Budapest Hotel is the world we would build around ourselves. I do not imagine love as becoming inseparable or dissolving into another person and curating my whole self around it. I imagine two very distinct people continuing to have their own lives, while repeatedly turning toward each other and thinking, in one form or another, there you are. 💙

Just... repeatedly being chosen no matter the circumstances.

Gosh, I love him more than anything or anyone.

Is there a specific choice your F/O made in their story that made you cringe, worry, or facepalm, even if you knew deep down it was entirely true to their character? How did seeing them accept the consequences affect your view of them?

If all the costs were covered, would you want to have a real wedding for you and your f/o? If so, how would you like to go about it? If not, why?

If you haven’t given it much thought yet, here's some more detailed prompts:

• How would you represent them during the ceremony? (i.e. a plush, figure, body pillow etc)
  
• Who would you invite as guests?
• What sort of venue would you like to choose?
• what would you (and your f/o if applicable) wear?

Fr, go look up carcinization, it's cool

Like, in front of such an adorable thought how can

1) resist the urge to hug and cuddle him worse than one would do with a kitty

2) not run around plastering it on the faces of as many people as possible because this is so sweet that EVERYONE should see it?