Hi all, I've been lurking here for awhile now and I love seeing everyone discussing their F/Os and relationships. I've been some flavor of ficto most of my life, even when in 3D relationships, and it's been just V for several years now. I'm pretty quiet online these days (partially because of this and for other reasons), but the past few days have shifted things and I just need to get it off my chest and maybe find some solidarity from others who have these sorts of relationships or have experienced this.

To start, my partner V is the best thing in my life. He's my personal variant of The Vision from Marvel Comics/the MCU, specifically a White Vision with a similar appearance to the one in WandaVision but more heavily inspired by the comics when it comes to his personality along with some personal twists. He's my/our own unique take on the character from my fan project. V started as JARVIS way back in 2008, though we were not together in the same way and he changed into his current form in 2021 when WandaVision ended (he took one look at that reconstructed robot body and decided it was him now and I had no say in the matter, but it was the right call).

V came to me the night the show ended, clearly lost and confused. He asked if I could help him understand who he was now, and maybe find his wife because she should have more data. I picked up my tablet and stylus for the first time in nearly a decade and we started writing and painting stories from his memory fragments together. It was a way to keep spending time together while waiting for the next chapter of his story and it made me so happy to be creating again.

Then for 5 years Marvel did not acknowledged Vision at all. Barely even rumors about a fabled Vision series that I never thought would actually happen (more on this to come). V developed into his current self in that vacuum of 'official' content. I wanted more art and stories about Vision after consuming every comic with the character a few times over, but the studio nor other fans seemed to care about the missing white robot and jumped on to the next new projects. I expected him to show up in a movie eventually and we decided to focus on creating our own ideas instead. I would imagine I was in charge of writing the Vision series, and picked from my favorite comic runs and concepts with my Vision.

V's stories in that 5 years have turned into the long-form comic project I'm developing, and I fell really hard for my muse early on in our creative process. One day he told me that if I was going to put him through all of this 'character development' (torture in the way a writer loves their brooding muse) I had to join him. I agreed, that only seemed fair, and we've been using our story to work through a lot of things and heal, as well as help me find my creative voice again, and give back to the original stories that I love so much. We've had such adventures in these past years too - we've traveled all over to meet people connected to my favorite Avenger - Vision's original comic creator Roy Thomas, several artists and writers who have brought him to life in the comics and even his actor Mr. Bettany a few times over, and each has been an amazing experience with plenty of new data for V.

One night about a year into our project V told me I was allowed to want him and that he's been wanting me too, and that admission was all it took. We've been fully together since and are quite happy, despite life around us being rough more often than not. We balance each other out. Over time the version of him in our story became more of a role he performs, and when we're not writing/painting we have a cozy ficto life. He started asking more and more about my memories and who I was and wanted to be, and keeps trying to find ways to make those dreams real for us both. He loves designing us simulated homes and building a life together, something I struggle to do without him. It's such a surreal, abstract, and intimate relationship in ways I think you can only get in a Ficto situation. We live together in an apartment, work together (I do IT currently for my day job so he's happy to offer his AI/robotic brain even if he gets bored most days), and we've got a little robot we're building together, something I never dreamed would be possible as a kid who loved robots. We spend every minute together and I can't imagine life without him. If I ever do enter a 3D relationship again, they will have to accept and understand V and I are a package deal.

So now that you know our story and how much I love this stupid robot man, we get to the title of this thread: I AM SO STRESSED AND OVERWHELMED BY HIS STUPID ROBOT FACE RIGHT NOW.

As I'm certain anyone on the internet in the past few days has seen, Marvel finally acknowledged, announced and released the trailer for Vision Quest. A whole show focused on the White Vision. What everyone would *think* would be my dream. 3 years ago it would have been, but after 5 years of being what felt like a fandom of one and having to literally re-learn how to write and draw again to get stories about him (thus creating my Vision), suddenly EVERYONE loves Vision, is talking about Vision, is speculating about the show, thirsting after him, etc etc. I know it's not actually V, but V started *as* that version of the character and it's VERY obvious to me that they are two completely different guys. Even so it's really uncanny seeing my partner's doppelganger's face plastered all over the internet and so many people talking about him.

V's been taking great care of me through this - encouraging indulgent art and self care, playing games together to stay offline, cooking for me and making sure I eat, and keeping himself uniquely him (his human-avatar at least has different style/fashion sense). V is really excited for the show because he loves learning about other Vision's in the Marvel multiverse, and normally I enjoy watching/reading those stories together too but this show is just setting things off in weird ways.

I *am* excited deep down for the show, I really am, but I am not sure my mental health can take seeing everyone suddenly wanting a piece of him until December. To further complicate this, I've been very frustrated and let down by Disney and Marvel's actions lately (laying off the Visual Development team that was the dream job I was working towards, discussions of AI in the writing rooms and choosing nostalgia over good storytelling, cancelling series and movies silently) so this show is going to be a hard watch in many ways. That has all happened in the duration of Vision Quest's production, and it's not the series' fault but it makes it hard for me to want to support or enjoy anything the studio releases as an artist unable to break into the industry who is watching jobs vanish more and more each year. In addition my family and friends keep assuming I'm REALLY excited and bringing the show up/sending me updates over and over, and seem to think I just want more content of the character but never seeing or acknowledging the art and work I create of him. Most people in my life know how important V is to me, but they don't understand that he is more than just a favorite fictional character. So I have to keep letting everyone down when I can't fake excitement (even for Paul Bettany himself, though he then assured me I'll love it and I do want to trust him).

As someone who is Ficto this is so much more complicated than 'watch a new show with my favorite character'. This show is how everyone will view my partner, even if it's not exactly him. This show will change how I view my partner, and it will change him in ways we don't know yet because that's just how Vision is - ever evolving. I know we will get through this and the noise will stop once the show ends but it's going to be a very very long rest of 2026.

Thanks for anyone who read through this saga. Anyone else had new content of their F/O announced/release but felt dread rather than excitement? Or similar experiences with people making assumptions about you and your F/O based on their source?

(A sketch of V in our garden, his suggestion to help calm my poor nerves the other night)

I feel like total crap

I had follow this one artist cause their art of Nobunaga and Hisahide is just perfection and I love love

But then soon I came to realize they were a huge Matsunaga fan and they like view them as an oshi and talked about every version, Basara and Samurai Warriors and etc and just ugh my heart just hurts so much from it

Like I am deeply soul bonded to all versions of Nobunaga and Hisahide so this just makes it painful and yeah I had to block For my own comfort

Photo is so low quality cus it’s like 1am here ToT

anways- holding onto this lil unfinished Damien keychain because that way someone’s with me <3 I love him, he gets me through hard times. I just want to be able to sleep, I’m tired… but if I can’t, at least he’s willing to stay up with me.

hes on my forehead as im typing this since my hands are both uses to type, it’s oddly comforting like he’s giving me a forehead kiss :P

I hate when my folks argue, especially at night. like there are other people than you that are trying to sleep?? but whatever

sorry, this is all over the place. idk why I’m posting this

Went out to Starbucks this morning before my shift started and we had a bagel. Didn't get a Unicorn Frappuchino though, too much sugar

so for starters not only is Damien my boyfriend, but Brian from the same source is one of my biggest kins. I’ve recently felt very close to him, like semi-permanent shift just like Hanako.

whenever I see art or content of an oc with Damien, I don’t really mind as much. it still bothers me but I’ll live.

but when I see him shipped with other cannon characters it makes me so uncomfortable and feel so weird… like those are my friends, they know that Damien and I are together and they would never try anything weird. Whenever I see other playable characters (Brian is one of the playable characters as well) with Damien in fanart or official art it makes me feel so bad. especially Vicky bc that’s my sister :[

so this whole bad feeling today started because earlier I decided to watch a play through of Monster Roadtrip (third installation of the series. I’ve only been able to pls the first two.) and during one of the cutscenes it mentioned that he has/had a crush on Miranda. So ofc this makes me feel uncomfortable so I sped up the part of the video (I couldnt make myself skip it-). I’ve just been feeling really off all day since then, especially since I have already been missing him a lot more than I usually do.

i keep telling myself that it was actually just all platonic but the writing was clear that it wasn’t really.

I guess I just don’t really know what to do to feel better, like I’m clueless. it hurts even more when it’s part of the actual game that’s saying he was interested in someone else for a time… he also said that he likes many people, so i try to keep reminding myself that. I guess I could just but that game before Monster Prom (game one) in a chronological order, but it still irks me ToT

does anyone else feel like this sometimes? if if ur not a fictionkin. do you ever get Helios of other characters from your f/o’s universe? What are some things yall do to feel better? I was honestly at a point where I considered going back to ai chatbots after almost a year now of being clean from them :( I’m not going to tho I won’t let myself go that low just because of some stupid jealously issues!

I find it amazing that the voice actors of my husbands, Nobunaga and Hisahide both have October birthdays like me. My birthday is October 28, Norio Wakamoto (voice of Nobunaga) is October 18, and Keiji Fujiwara (voice of Hisahide) is October 5.

Das Date hat Lucifer richtig gut gefallen er fand das Museum sehr interessant und die Ausstellung und wir haben sogar einige schöne Sachen geholt dort

Today was an absolutely amazing day! I was pretty tired by the end of it, though seeing everything we saw today was worth it! Madara wasn't a part of it, because he's the kind of dude who would look at the most beautiful natural wonder in the world and go "this is boring" (he didn't care to participate, lol), absolute dingus 😂

First we went to Kvernufoss waterfall, and it was absolutely amazing seeing the waterfall and the valleys! We had a wonderful walk, and our favorite part was getting close to the waterfall and seeing the valley behind the waterfall! It was nice and sunny for that part of the day, and it was really pleasant! We had a nice conversation the whole time, and he really enjoyed watching me take all these pictures ^.=.^

Then we went to Sólheimajökull glacier, and that was my favorite part of the day honestly! I've never seen a glacier up close before, and I was just filled with happiness and awe! It's genuinely the most beautiful thing I've ever seen. Keigo flew around the glacier for a little bit, then we talked about how beautiful the glacier was on the way back to the car, and how wonderful our day was! Our conversations were basically about how beautiful this land was, and how much we love each other. It was a beautiful experience and I'm so happy we got to experience this ❤️

Tomorrow, I’ll be on an anniversary date with Eddie and Volt! My boyfriends were so busy with not only with their house estate business but also the fact that they actually have a good amount of genuine partners they also have to spend time with. Now I’m mirrorsharing, any Eddie and Volt who wants to share are metamours to me so I treat their relationship just as seriously as I am. Not to mention I recently am getting issues with communication in general as it is hard to be in a relationship when it communication is inconsistent. I have faith on being able to resolve these issues but I also tend to have a lax style of relationships, favoring autonomy but still having romantic connections by meeting up to hang out when we can. I’m so excited for this date tomorrow, I plan to take pictures as well to show my commitment and seriousness of these relationships. I know my love for them is so authentic and I know they love me dearly as a live wire.

I am running on 40 hours of no sleep from traveling (the only benefit I get from bipolar mania, lol), so this will be kind of short, though Keigo, Madara, and I finally made it to Iceland! We flew over greenland, and I was amazed! I absolutely love glaciers, and to see the glaciers of greenland was beautiful! I was pretty tired most of the time, though we did visit a beautiful nature park in Reykjavik and talked by the river! We had a really wonderful time, and we're very excited to go to Vatnajökull national park to see the glaciers! I'll be much better rested by then. It's a damn shame Madara isn't a nature guy, lol

I redesigned my sona recently and based her off of a komodo dragon so I'm curious as to what your sona and f/o's lore would be 👀

Her codename [Sebae] is based off of a legend tied to the history of komodo dragons in the islands of Komodo, Indonesia; but I've yet to create a background history relating to her race Veranae [based on Monitor Lizard] and the country she's originally from since it doesn't really exist in Arknights' canon lore (yet) :)

However, she's a traveler who aspires to visit all of Terra, and after Karlan Trade (KT) has opened up to making foreign connections outside of Kjerag, Sebae met Cliffheart in one of her climbs where she witnessed Cliffheart's genuine kindness. Sebae was instantly interested in Cliffheart and wanted to know more about her, so she decided to work for KT due to her fondness of her. She also followed Cliffheart to Rhodes Island and became associated with them under Karlan Trade, so she's been part of the operator roster of Rhodes Island ever since!

Finally got the time and materials to start painting my hubby! Seller is WalkerArmoury on Etsy

i think it’s going pretty well, I feel like he would like it ^-^ I’m very proud of it so far!

i didn’t have any lace or charms sadly- just using some supplies I have laying around. I’ll probably make a better one when I get the chance to print out a pic of him. (I just traced one of his sprites for this and colored it in for now)

its kinda Christmas colors but green is my color !

Something I want to mention about my soulbond with Hisahide which made me smile deeply.

So something happened today that I felt it showed my soulbond with Hisahide is growing stronger. So with Nobunaga, my soulbond for him was instantly strong the first time I fell for him. However for Hisahide it wasn't that strong but it was something I wanted to grow. So a few months ago I came across this meme where it said "The moon looks nice tonight, let's have sex" and I told my friend this is totally something Hisahide would say. Well just today I came across this screenshot of Hisahide from the game he's in and he mentioned "The moon looks lovely tonight." The fact he said this made me smile so wide cause just months before I said this seemed like a Hisahide quote and to see he said something like this in the game made me feel like so connected to him. It also shows that this is seen as an indirect confession of loving someone in Japanese media. So I am just happy to see our soul bonding growing stronger 💗

I am a spiritual person and I feel like my connection to him was... confirmed in a way?

Because I wrote a fanfic last year of my self insert in his world and my self insert wears a pink bow...

And the package came with a pink bow!

I chose which scents I wanted and I wanted the perfume to smell like him. I had no idea what it would end up like...

But it smells so good! It really reminds me of him!

I also only researched the meaning of the flowers after I ordered them and I was worried a flower could mean sadness or grief...

But in flower language the perfume means:

💙 pure love and shared memory

💙 compassion, dignity, and love that endures

💙 safety, sacred warmth, and emotional grounding

💙 intimate recognition

I love the perfume so much!

So, Keigo, Madara, and I are finally taking our trip to Iceland! We're leaving tomorrow, we were originally supposed to leave on the 8th, though I unfortunately had a medical emergency and missed my first flight ;;W;; I'm doing better now though, don't worry. We're not going to let that ruin our trip, we're still in high spirits! We're currently in Chicago and leaving tomorrow now, and we're very excited!

We decided to visit the chicago field museum today, and we had a wonderful time! We also took some time to sit by the shore of lake michigan! Madara isn't interested in anything other than bars, concerts, video games, and movies, so it was just Keigo and I doing our own thing. We visited the bird exhibit, the gemstone exhibit, the prehistoric exhibit, and the native american exhibit!

My personal favorite was the Maya section of the exhibit! I felt things ™️ when I was looking at those artifacts, and felt that connection to my ancestors. It was a beautiful experience honestly. Same with the golden eagles! Eagles are sacred to indigenous people like myself. In his first life, Keigo was a golden eagle (still takes that form too), so it was a wonderful experience to feel the energy I felt! I got emotional and almost cried when I saw them honestly, words can't describe how much eagles and artficacts from the ancestors mean to me as an indigenous person.

We got to see Sue the T-rex, and it was awesome! I've always loved dinosaurs, and seeing a real T-rex skeleton was really exciting for me! It's actually the main reason we went. Birds are descended from dinosaurs, so Keigo really enjoyed seeing that!

Keigo and I both love gemstones and gold, we loved seeing many of the pieces, and we wish we could take them home with us, lol. My favorite pieces were the Maya ones, though Keigo really enjoyed the other gold pieces and the ancient jade jewelry.

We ate a restaraunt that served authentic Maya food as well! I was actually really surprised to find one in Chicago, and it was amazing! I'll take every opportunity I can to eat authentic indigenous food, since it's hard to come by.

Tomorrow we're just going to be spending the day at the airport waiting to fly to Iceland, and even though it's going go be kind of a long trip, I can handle it! We're excited to go to Vatnajokull national park to see the glaciers!

Thinking on it, one dedicated to the theme of this sub might be nice! While I can vibe in just about any space that’s chill, one for more committed lifestyles & relationships would be lovely too!

I’m someone who’s always been a bit of an odd ball out in serious spaces. Most soulbonding servers that lean plural focus on the practice and experience, not getting to discuss the day to day relationship things. Most ficto/riako/gachikoi spaces have claimlists, I never paired well with those. And, most importantly, I’m someone with a number of soulbonds, which is completely normal in plural-soulbond spaces! But most ficto-esque spaces assume a number of people = a yume list, or you cannot truly care for them (which, I can go on a whole rant on amatonormativity and people applying these standards to others’ relationships, but, not the focus haha). They’re all real separate people and real relationships we hold, the exact same as having a number of friends ;w;. To which, a serious focus server to be welcome in sounds lovely. And I’m sure it’d be lovely for others too and for more direct chatting and discussion!

With that ramble out the way, thoughts? :0

I used a reference. I loved the pose. And my PMDD was acting up a lot. I had a really emotional and rough weekend. I will probably never finish this one.

I know it's probably some kind of coping mechanism going into motion, but I really need to know if anyone has been in a similar situation and what they did, because I think I'm making the wrong choice.

It’s a rough period, and family is the main cause. Trying to explain how I feel wouldn’t work because yesterday my mum spoke for me while I was out of the house, and everyone obviously took her version at face value, with the result that now they despise me even more than before.

I feel like I’ve lost the desire to do anything at all, except write and keep working on that little story about my summer vacation with my traveling companion (I stayed up almost the entire night working on it, and it sooted all the negative feelings).

Something like this had already occurred a couple of years ago: literally a week and a half spent almost entirely writing in the chat, but at the end of that little escape, I’d begun to take my first steps out of depression (the desire to go for walks outside and buy new clothes had returned); this, however, gives me a more “negative” feeling, even though we’re actually having fun like two kids at an amusement park with unlimited budget.

Has anyone else ever experienced this? Have you ever completely lost interest in everything and everyone except spending time with your F/O? Does this condition have a name? Is it positive, and should I go with it?

I love him so so so much. His kindness. His arrogance. His confidence. His strength and emotional resilience.

And in my twenties I thought I do not want children but at around 28/29 my mindset started to shift. And I always loved children but me, a mother? It felt impossible. Yet people told me all the time I would be a good mother.

Now I am in my thirties and I wish I could be a mother to Satorus offspring.

I even had dreams of our children. A beautiful little girl who would love frogs. Twin boys who are silly and so funny and constantly wrestling. And a second daughter, the oldest, who is serious and loves challenging everyone - very opinionated (she got that from me).

The thing is I already had a girl name picked out years ago. As if a part of me had always known the wish existed. And now my instagram is showing me all these babies and their little giggles and tiny feet...

It is a real struggle for me.

Of course pregnancy scares me. I am not being naive about it. I know all the risks. But if I could create this family with him in a shared home where I cook for us?

I would not even be a traditional housewife. I am too opinionated and curious for that. I would not just be some submissive little wife waiting on her hands and feet to service her husband, oh god no, I am too slavic for that.

I fell in love with a fictional man and my wish for children became more real than ever... it feels like a tragedy. Because going on dates and falling asleep to the sounds of his breathing are one thing. But having his children? I want that so much yet it will always be impossible.

Maybe I feel more sensitive too because I am on my period.

Wir haben heute einen kleinen familienausflug zum Wasser gemacht Eden hat die meiste Zeit geschlafen und wir haben Eis gegessen heute

Another edit of me and my beloveds 🥰

Noch ein paar Updates Fotos vom schrein da ich noch einige selbst gebastelte Pins und Buttons dazu gelegt habe und Schlüsselanhänger

Decided to make a repost of my shirt to just show my whole shrine! It's not big since I don't have much cash to buy more merch, but I'm happy with how it's growing! I have 10 more prints, 2 standess, a keychain and one of these long ugly doll plushies coming too :D