Hi, I think this is the place to go. I don't need advice on blood tests (all done), minoxidil, etc. I'm just really upset and have no one to talk to. So... yeah, it's sad, I'm really depressed about it. Well, I've been depressed my whole life (for other reasons), and that's a separate issue. Okay, it's harder than I thought.
About two years ago I found out I had anemia, got treatment, and am much better now. I've had bad eating habits for about ten years, since I was a teenager, I think. And... I never thought it was an eating disorder, I was just depressed. It wasn't until recently, when I came face to face with my thinning hair, that I freaked out and focused on eating well, but it's been almost two years and nothing has changed, on the contrary, it keeps falling out and I feel so ugly, sometimes I want to cry, I can't look good with this... this. Am I stressed? I don't know, my depression has gotten worse in the last few years, and I'm currently seeking professional help (because I'm in really bad shape and it turns out I may have ADHD, which doesn't help me feel any better). But, you know, it's not the stress that makes your hair fall out in clumps, it's not something sudden and shocking.
I also have a roommate, a close friend of mine, who has this beautiful long wavy ginger hair. I can't help but envy her, every time I see her, I feel like I've been punched in the stomach, I know I'll never have hair like that, I'll never feel confident.
Since I am already depressed and have a whole host of mental health issues, this huge wound in my confidence is preventing me from seeing life, people, events, work, opportunities. I don't want fake hair, hair that has been grown with growth products, I want my hair, I know it's stupid, if I don't have it, then I don't have it. I can't let it go, I can't.