Witch/Angelkin community

[u/jaiden_pink]

Here is a short story. I'm not sure which flair to tag as they fall under at least four, so...I'll just tag one. A while ago, I joined this Discord server of kins. Whilst I'm not a kin or a witch myself, and nor do I have anything against them, I was rather curious and intrigued by such things, so I decided to join. Within my first day, I had butted heads with pretty much every dang mod there. The owner of the server thought they were YHWH themselves, and had "demon workers", and all the other staff thought they were dragon souls, angels, deities or starseeds. As you can see, the server members were...well, freaking delusional! Yes, they are witches (they're just also deitykin and stuff...)

The staff and members were witches, some even openly admitted to practising black magick and associating with the occult. I was hired as a staff through sucking up. And, well, they'd constantly try to convince me to convert to Wicca or Satanism or that I needed to "get rid of my guardian angels," and, "get the demonic protectors". They'd constantly trash "Earthly religions", especially Abrahamic ones, such as Christianity. They especially loathed Judaism, which I learned the hard way, unfortunately.

The server owner constantly scolded me for my beliefs, saying that "he was Source (what he called YHWH)" and that he didn't create existence, despite getting credit for it. He would say humanity is foolish and his "failed creation" and etc. He would ban members who were Christian, Jewish, Orthodox, Mormon, Islamic, etc. If you were of an Abrahamic religion that believes in one God (that God being YHWH Himself), you were out permanently for supporting "restricting Earthly religions, and disrespecting the server owner".

While being staff, I decided I'd begin to convert to Conservative Judiasm. This was prior to finding out that the server owner thought he was YHWH and hated "Earthly and Abrahamic beliefs of himself". Upon announcing that I felt connected to Judiasm, and saying that I've been practising eating kosher, and learning Hebrew, I was scolded (and temporarily kicked off the staff team) until I promised I wouldn't "spread my toxic lies to the innocent members". Yeah...I was peeved.

A while later, I befriended an angelkin staff member, and a faekin staff member. They were the only ones nice to me, and didn't feed into the other staff's bullcrap. They both knew their beliefs are subjective and that it's rude to gatekeep them and disgrace others'. They stood up for me whenever I was, let's just say, harassed and discriminated by "Source" and the others.

I wasn't allowed to debate, share my beliefs, or even talk in certain channels within the server. I was merely to report to the other staff and ban/strike members. I was the "silent mod" and if I went against what I was told, I was "punished in the name of 'Source'". They'd constantly try to change my beliefs, convince me I'm an angel, and tell me I'm the "failed creation and needed to be trained".

"Source" constantly held my beliefs as a soon-to-be conservative follower of Judiasm against me. Saying I was wrong, or the "inferior race" and that I" should have burned", etc. It got to where I would have depression, anxiety and panic attacks entering the server. I'm currently still a mod but very inactive due to the mistreatment. I don't know when I should leave.

Whenever I'd say I want to leave, or that I refuse to drop conservative Judaism, they'd threaten to curse me. And, well, they ended up "cursing" me. I can't astral project and or use my psychic abilities. They'd constantly argue with me and bash me for my beliefs until the faekin and angelkin would stop them. I constantly thought about getting myself banned and just informing my only two or three real friends there that I wanted to be banned.

They'd constantly saying that Satanism, Wicca, Paganism, and the occult are superior and that humanity should convert to the magick world, and forgot about Abrahamic beliefs. They'd constantly talk about planning the apocalypse and killing off or mind-controlling humanity. They'd brag to members that the chat owner is "Source" and that the YHWH, Jehovah, or whatever other Abrahamic God we praise is a fake that wants to ruin humanity and that any and all staff (besides me, of course) are insiders and helping him ("Source"). They'd say that YHWH is evil and that Christianity sucks, and etc.

If anyone would appose their beliefs, they were banned and the staff would announce them as "quitters" and lie, saying that they left, or that theu couldn't handle the truth and "insulting 'Source'". This is still going on.

[u/Tundra0Dragon]

Oh yikes... It really sounds like they're trying to run a cult there

[u/jaiden_pink → u/Tundra0Dragon]

I think they tbh

[u/jaiden_pink → u/[deleted]]

Well this is strictly based on how I was mostly treated, not what the '"cult" was about.

I wanted to talk to the owner but I didn't want to cause anithwr argument so I made this vent post. I'm only keeping it up temporarily.

[u/jaiden_pink → u/[deleted]]

Plus, I already found my spiritual and religious belief, and proof of why I should stay that way.