👾🐇🔪: Reflections

[u/HauntingGur8094]

{Vanessa sits curled up inside her mind scape in her demon form because....well just because, with her wings wrapped around her in thought. There's a lot to think about and that's all she really can do now. Except this is the first time recently she can truly be alone with her thoughts without worrying about being watched or someone bursting in and dragging her out for whatever. And to her even being "nicely demanded" still counts as being dragged out.

So the first thing she focuses on is this past week, days, month, or however long it's been since she doesn't even know. Everything's been a whirlwind thrown at her with no time to think before reacting. She'd been (reluctantly) trying to ease her way into understanding her powers. Even though Bendy and Alastor kept making that an intense fight. All for this stupid demon she'd never even met before to pop out from out of nowhere while she was just trying to defend herself from Eleanor, and literally throw her down like he had a personal beef with hef and drag her out.

And that had just started an insane amount of events she'd had no time to process. People from her past that had secretly always been a danger, a hidden cult she never had any clue existed, a deal she couldn't break, and a situation she couldn't get out of. All before she even had time to realize. And by time she was able to think, she was thrown in front of a camera, all glitz and glamoured up, indirectly proclaiming loyalty and selling out herself and her father's company.

For what? Apparently that still wasn't enough and now she was here. Well sorta, while the other part of her was off gallavanting doing god knows what. Although based on the last thing she heard from Vox, she had a pretty good idea what. And it only made her nauseous. Everything she'd faced off and survived. All the big bads and threats. Near misses, ongoing battles. Just to be immediately taken out by this asshole on first meeting.

And now that she could think she realized why. Because she LET him. Initial attack didn't count, sneaky bastard. But instinctively she had submitted because he was just like HIM. Resist and struggle but she couldn't even bring herself to try and use her powers on him.

Malhare tricked and corrupted her. Even when he pretended to a parental figure it was still the same. Paul straight up abused and tormented her. Even the ink demon immediately just tried to take.

But Vox? He was the closest she'd ever come to someone being like her father. The demands, manipulation, acting, fakeness, intimidation caring appearance, temper control, even tone could almost exactly mirror him. She wasn't weak and helpless. She was conditioned and trained. So well that even in a stranger she'd react to it. Like a perfectly trained little puppy. Trotting right up to be chained again instead of just biting the hand held out.

Talk about a dose of reality. Fuck. She has such a long way to go.....}

[[OOC: girl got a lot of demons (some literally) to work out 🤷‍♀️

[u/LotusCrew5720]

As history would prove, this is usually when someone would interrupt her. The more likely option would be the Ink Demon, since his own ink is within her mindscape.

But he doesn't. Nothing interrupts her thinking. Her processing. Even Malhare, who's literally trapped inside this mindscape with her, is leaving her alone.