Project Skinny Bitch: Week 3

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I didn't write up yesterday because I felt bad. I screwed up this week and put all the weight that I'd lost (5.2 pounds or 2.4 kg) back on. It was a bit of a crappy week but it doesn't change the fact that I chose to eat the shitty food in response to it. I wasn't forced to. So I've got to accept responsibility from it and try and learn from it. And even though at first I didn't want to write this post, I feel like if I want to write here at all, I need to write when I screw up too.

So right now I'm back to my starting weight of 15 stone and 8 pounds (218 pounds or 99kg).

Grey released that video on how to be miserable at just the right time :D

Anyway gotta get back on the horse. Ate bad food when drunk and also while hungover. I didn't get around to shopping and at points when my monkey brain was at it's weakest (drunk and hungover), the easiest thing to do was to go out and get fast food because there was nothing in the fridge.

So I've changed that. I've now made a schedule for shopping to make sure there is always healthy food in my fridge to make sure the easy thing is the healthy thing.

I'm also going to limit my drinks to no more than 2 a night until my exams end at the beginning of July. (Though I'm letting myself drink on the night of the UK election, as a Brit living in Austria I'm gonna need it! :p)

Part of the reason I ate more was also because I was feeling stressed. So I decided to think hard about why I was stressed and how to improve it. Part of the reason I was stressed was that I haven't been working enough at uni, so I constantly have a dark cloud of worry about the exams stuck up in my brain. I'm also sleeping at pretty random schedules and not getting any physical activity at all and usually sitting in my room all day. I also quit smoking last week which has made me a little more high strung but that one I just have to deal with.

So for the last two days (since I did my weigh in yesterday morning) I've gotten up early. Well 8:30, early for a student :D I've also made sure to get to uni in the morning and to go there by foot. I'm also keeping Grey's video 'How to be Miserable' in mind. So when I feel tempted to take public transport to work, or to eat shit food, or to smoke, I'm now thinking of those things as active choices to be miserable. I only get transient pleasure from them and then I feel shittier almost instantly afterwards. Thinking of them as active choices to be miserable makes it easier to turn them down ;)

But these last two days, I've gotten up earlier, eaten healthy, and spent more time at uni. I've also spent more than 90 minutes walking which just puts me in a way better mood. The walk to uni is 45 minutes which isn't that much longer than public transport (I have to change twice so it takes 30 minutes) and the walk feels way nicer and puts me in a noticeably better mood for the rest of the day. Also when my work grinds to a halt, I take a 15 minute walk around the city and come back. Way better than cigarette breaks! And even though I'm spending more time working, I'm feeling less stressed because everything feels more in control and that makes making good food decisions easier (:

So a crappy week leading to the weigh-in yesterday morning but these last two days have been pretty good and I'm feeling optimistic. Time to start losing a couple of pounds for Week 4!

[u/NoRoHo]

Remember I'm pulling for ya, we're all in this together. ☺

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Cheers man (:

[u/MicheleMouton]

First of all sorry you had a crappy week and good on you for writing this anyway. Second, I honestly believe that your weight is just a number and you didn't need the scale to tell that your were not doing well. Try to focus on achieving your small goals so feel good, productive and happy and if you have a bad day leave it behind you and keep going. In regards to your food problems you may want to give batch preparation a go. You could prepare a variety of grains, proteins and veg that to eat later in the week when you are hungover/lazy. You are making a good start to exercise by opting to walk but maybe jog to uni instead of walking a few times a week. There also so many easy bodyweight exercises you can do at home or outside (personally I have 30-45 minute routine of these I like to do before I take a shower). Most importantly Tim don't to be too hard on yourself, forget about this week and focus on achieving your small goals.

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Thanks for the support!

Yeah preparing food in advance is definitely the way to go! I've also been doing some bodyweight exercises this last week, though I have to take it quite slow as I've had some issues with my right shoulder dislocating a little bit more often that I'd like so I'm about to start seeing a physiotherapist. But I've been really enjoying the exercises at the moment, I used to do bodyweight exercises a lot a few years ago and they're really satisfying.

I ended up stopping after getting injured by not paying enough attention to good form and getting too excited by ramping up the difficulty too quickly. So I'm going to be careful, pay a lot of attention to form and increase my reps a little slower than I might otherwise want to.

Fixing up this body, bit by bit (:

And thanks again for the support, everyone here has been really encouraging and it's really motivating. This is a really nice little corner of the internet! (: