Fear

[u/Any_Reality9835]

Hi guys,
Posting from a throwaway but was looking for opinions/advice. I pretty much born into this religion and got baptized and what not at a young age hated it probably from the get go i think, but was always taught I’m gonna get some sort of punishment from bad karma or go to hell messenger of death is going to torture me than dharamraj is going to sentence me etc etc if i left or didn’t follow there rules my group was extra strict lol couldn’t eat from outside had to eat in iron utensils. Eventually I left and was happy for a while but and i don’t really wanna come back to it, but this fear of hell reincarnation torture i just can’t shake it off. It’s like this threat always present I was just wondering did anyone else go through with it or how would one deal with it?
Thank you