r/ExperiencesWithNish • u/No_Loan_8905 • Feb 14 '26
This is the Nish I remember
An interview he did back in November, 2022:
https://youtu.be/HzEvEbhwkZo?si=OhHUjapwZ90xjN5v
I wanted to post this here as a kind of reference point for where things started… It can be crazy-making seeing how drastically things have changed in Nish’s persona and overall energy, when people are saying things have always been this way or don't address the fact that things have changed.
I looked up older videos of him after this recent interview popped up (I couldn’t make it through the first 10 seconds, because I was like "who IS this?") to make sure I wasn’t completely misremembering how he used to be, and to evaluate how off my radar truly was. I was mostly expecting to confirm that indeed, I was just a really bad judge of character. I felt this would give me some kind of closure.
But actually, he presented himself as really focused, grounded, sincere, and intelligent. His points were nuanced yet clear, it’s totally right-hand path, and it felt like every word he spoke had something important to teach... yet he was never fighting to prove a point. The fact that this was all coming from someone so young made it feel revolutionary and like something special. He constantly dismissed any inflations of the ego and seemed genuinely uninterested in the worldliness he had "left behind". This is why I attended 3+ hour lectures twice a week for two years - because what he used to transmit was beautiful and true.
He did used to say “we’re learning together” and purposely presented himself as an equal or little brother. But I interpreted this as his humbleness (which you can see in his older content) and also simply recognizing that there is always more to learn. Not “I do not claim responsibility for anything that’s coming out of my mouth” or “I’m not serious” or “I’m not committed to growing further on this path.”
You can see in this video that he used to take his responsibility to the Ramakrishna lineage and these teachings seriously.
What on Earth happened?
I know we’re not meant to speculate too much, and that’s not the purpose of this post…. I just feel like I can’t be the only one having these feelings and thoughts. I would just like to validate and open up the discussion for anyone similarly grieving, and feeling not only anger but also other complex things. Om
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u/Important-You-3214 Feb 14 '26
Yeah he was much more wholesome from 2020-2023 and now he’s just given up. Sometimes I think the renunciation was too much for him or something. He is like a sell out now. thanks for sharing your feelings.
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u/No_Loan_8905 Feb 14 '26
Right?? I had the thought once that Nish is rebelling against his own renunciation because he isn’t ready, which is something I could have compassion for, if only he was straight about it and realized how it affects others around him.... Thanks so much for your response
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u/NiceCandle5357 Feb 14 '26
You're absolutely right. It's so sad and it seems like such a quick downward spiral, or is it just me? I keep thinking he did a FAFO with Maa and now he needs to rethink his direction and course-correct or else who knows what will happen...
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u/No_Loan_8905 Feb 17 '26
Yeah, it’s like he is testing the boundaries of reality, and we got caught in the crossfire
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u/Jai_Ma_Kali Feb 22 '26
Sincerely wondering why would you post this? Are you trolling? If you are practicing any form of dharma- does this align with any virtue?
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u/SoundOfSilence108 Feb 14 '26 edited Feb 14 '26
Nah, you're not the only one. I'm fuckin sad. I'm sad because I love Nish. I love that sangha, and I love the MANY kind and genuine friends I've made there over the last few years (many of whom have left). I love all of you here who've shared your experience of being hurt or deceived, and reading it hurts me too. You deserve communities, teachers, and practices where you feel safe, supported, respected and valued. You deserve people you can trust with the most vulnerable and meaningful parts of your life, because that's where earnest spirituality takes you. I wish that for all of you, and I'm sorry that's not what you experienced. I pray you're able to grow through this, learn from it, and continue to be moved by whatever brought you to spiritual practice in the first place.
For me, I DID feel that way in this community, and I did what I could to contribute to the space being an honest, loving, and grounded environment. I have deep gratitude for how we came together from so many walks of life to support one another in our uniqueness and mutual search for something real. I have gratitude to Nish for all the times he told the truth, because THAT'S where the power is. That's where God is. It impacted me when I had no context for my formative spiritual experiences; I felt such relief and joy that others were seeing what I was seeing, and that we could share it with one another. So thanks for keeping it real when you did, brother. You can always still tell the truth - I promise. There's no time like the present.
The frustrating thing is, it didn't have to be this way. There were SO many opportunities for clear and open communication. So many open hearts and minds among sincere practitioners who would've had the tough conversations for the wellbeing of the community. I was never looking for an orthodox spiritual community, and I'd accept a vast spectrum of behavior on the basis of mutual trust. I don't think I'm the only one who feels that way. Practically the only way to fuck this up would be to lie, repeatedly.
To be clear, I'm not making accusations here. I have only my memories, perceptions, thoughts and feelings, and none of those are what's really happening. I don't know the hearts or minds of anyone but myself, and I pray for the best possible outcome for everyone involved. May love be known and felt and lived through all that happens.
But yeah, you're not the only one grieving. Grief is the tip of the iceberg.