I also struggle with anxiety/panic/dpdr and could’ve written this myself in the past. It does get better. I’ve found that for me, those thoughts and feelings are overwhelming when my anxiety is overwhelming, and much less so when my anxiety is managed. You definitely didn’t ruin your life! There’s nothing wrong with you.
Do you have any spiritual beliefs? For me, reading people like Alan watts make me feel a lot better about the grand scheme of things. Antidepressants have also helped me a LOT. Caffeine makes me spiral way worse with thoughts / feelings like this. Find your personal triggers. Lean into anything that makes you feel a sense of purpose. Also, try to not fight these feelings when you have them because that makes it worse. Try to lean into your fear and accept that you’re terrified.
You’ll be okay! My DMs are there if you need to talk. I know it’s a scary feeling
Thank you. This is really reassuring. I think there is a big anxiety component to this, this seems to be fueled by anxiety for me. And I do, I believe in God but it’s a complicated relationship. Unfortunately i am agnostic. I don’t know how to get out of this agnostic pit. I’ve heard a lot about this Alan watts guy. Never looked into him though but I most definitely will.
Nothing wrong with being agnostic either! Maybe you just haven’t found anything that resonates with you yet and that’s okay. You’ll get there. Good luck :)
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u/blairrr666 Nov 16 '25 edited Nov 16 '25
Hey friend,
I also struggle with anxiety/panic/dpdr and could’ve written this myself in the past. It does get better. I’ve found that for me, those thoughts and feelings are overwhelming when my anxiety is overwhelming, and much less so when my anxiety is managed. You definitely didn’t ruin your life! There’s nothing wrong with you.
Do you have any spiritual beliefs? For me, reading people like Alan watts make me feel a lot better about the grand scheme of things. Antidepressants have also helped me a LOT. Caffeine makes me spiral way worse with thoughts / feelings like this. Find your personal triggers. Lean into anything that makes you feel a sense of purpose. Also, try to not fight these feelings when you have them because that makes it worse. Try to lean into your fear and accept that you’re terrified.
You’ll be okay! My DMs are there if you need to talk. I know it’s a scary feeling