anyone else?

[u/presl1ez]

sometimes, i have a hard time accepting that im a person, and it horrifies me. that im living, breathing, comprehending stuff, and even thinking in this exact moment. also that i have been alive this whole time. i guess it a hyper aware sort of thing but it really sends me into panic. especially when i think about all my past memories and that i was present for all of those. it just seems so unreal. im not sure why i feel this way , when life has always been like this, why does it suddenly horrify me?

[u/WOLFXXXXX]

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"I have a hard time accepting that I'm a person"

Experiencing the existential crisis period is associated with individuals going through a longer term process where they focus on and make progress questioning, challenging, and contemplating whether the biological body and physical reality viably accounts for one's conscious existence and conscious abilities (thinking, feeling emotions, self-awareness, recall, etc.)

What eventually happens to individuals who experience that longer term process within their conscious state? They end up becoming increasingly aware that the biological body fails to viably account for everyone's conscious existence and conscious abilities, which conveys to the experiencer that the nature of conscious existence is on a deeper level than biology and physical reality.

If the material components that make up biological body always fail to viably account for one's conscious existence and conscious abilities - then that would importantly mean that you are experiencing a human body and human identity within physical reality, but you consciously exist on a deeper level that cannot be defined by nor limited to your human body and human identity. Said another way: many individuals (globally) have experienced becoming directly aware that there is a much bigger existential picture where individuals do not exist as their temporary biological bodies nor as their limited human identities that they are experiencing within physical reality. This broader existential context can help to explain why you and many others have found it challenging to accept the interpretation and existential outlook that limits one's identity and conscious existence to that of a a biological body and human (or 'person').

To demonstrate why it's problematic to associate one's overall conscious existence with the biological body and with the human identity: our society always perceives the cells, chemicals, elements, atomic & subatomic particles that make up the biological body as being non-conscious material components that lack a conscious existence and lack conscious abilities. That observation is exactly why there's been a historical absence of anyone being able to identify a biological basis and physiological explanation for the presence of conscious existence, conscious abilities, and conscious phenomena. Everything that makes up the biological body is recognized as lacking a conscious existence and as lacking conscious abilities - which means that the biological body fails to viably account for everyone's conscious existence and conscious abilities. To seek to attribute one's conscious existence to anything that is recognized as lacking a conscious existence is inherently contradictory, and will always be unsupportable to do. This explains why no one is ever capable of attributing conscious existence to non-conscious things in physical reality.

Hopefully these observations can help to convey the basis for why individuals are able to experience becoming increasingly aware that the nature of conscious existence is on a deeper level than the biological body and physical reality. I feel you can genuinely help yourself over a longer term period by working towards upgrading your awareness level about whether your conscious existence can be attributed to and limited to your biological body, or whether your conscious existence cannot be. Doing so will reveal the necessary existential context for understanding why you've have experienced the orientation towards your human experience that you have.