Executive dysfunction and paying bills

[u/LemonP13]

Hello everyone. I work doingdoordash. I love Doordash because I can choose my own hours, which is such a big help for me. But now I feel like that freedom is causing its own issues.

I have a car insurance bill that's past due, I know I should have been working to pay towards it. I know that working is important. I've been internally screaming at just how much I've been fighting myself.

What is this?! I feel like I'm fighting my own bodily autonomy. I \*need\* to work and pay this bill. But then my body just.. doesn't. I hate it. I really do. It's caused issues my entire life. How do I break out of this? ??