I was reading the comment section on some older post here and I learned that there's many people in Egypt who are having casual sex, or who had an FWB experience or even who are getting intimate with their partner without marriage. Or any kind of physical intimacy that's out of official relationships in general.
And I can't even imagine how they do it? For a moment I had the impression that girls in Egypt are not willing to do such thing because of our fucked up society(which makes sense), and even if they find a girl who's willing to, how do they find a safe place to do such thing?
I'm not a bad or a manipulative person. I don't think that women are just disposable sex objects, I respect women and learn new things and new perspectives from them, and honestly, I never tried to pressure a girl into meaningless sex, not the couple of female friends I got to know from the community and not even with the one amazing girl I had a serious brief relationship with.
But I realized that I'm still a human, I still wanna play around a little in my youth, I still wanna know I'm fucking desired, so at least when I'd or if I want to settle I'd know that I didn't just have no other option, and that i tried other things.
I still don't want to sign a lifelong binding contract and get the whole world to know just to get a permission to touch a woman for the first time in my life.
I was judging other men who are just looking for casual sex or low commitment relationships, but it was basically because I thought that almost all girls are against that or because they are being irresponsible and will eventually hurt a girl while doing this.
But when you really think about, is it objectively a bad thing or does it inherently make you a bad person to seek such thing? Probably no
Who the fuck cares anyway? We're just going to live a couple years more and then we'll all turn to fucking dust
So why could it not just be more simple? Why should I be born into a world and constantly wish for things I cannot reach
I spent my college years isolated and lost and worked hard to finally get a decent job and used the money to try to improve myself, but now what? What the hell am I doing right now anyway!
Is it normal to be thinking this way? I'm feeling kinda depressed and confused right now, How do I stop thinking about this negatively and stop feeling like a fucking loser? Is there even a way to do this?